I wonder a million things.I have no answers to all.Only time will tell,only time will tell.
The only time that I actually stop thinking is when my eyes are shut.If I seek for help, I know it's gonabe pointless.And also, I don't wana waste anybody's time.Drooling over something that has no end, would be like talking to the wall.
Maybe one day, I will choose not to care.Maybe.
I wanabe a project manager one day.Random.Yes.One of the many things I wana do before I die.
Can I just say, I love you?Yes, I love you.Yesterday,today maybe tomorrow too.
26 Dec 2010
11 Dec 2010
All the way home
Before I start with anything, I wana say Hello to a very dear friend. Her name is Siti Ramizah. I know she reads my blog and then ask me if there's anything wrong.Every single time. Hehe. Woman I miss hangin with you.Nanti ok. And no, there's nothing wrong. Its just the time of the month.I think.Heheh
I feel like piercing something else.Hmmmm..We dont really have a special piercer here. A piercerist??
Im listening to this song Down by the water.Its kinda sweet.But then again words written or sung or said are just words.Nothing speaks louder than actions.
I was jammed with work the past few days. I barely had time for anything. And I felt as if I was forced to carry a very heavy stone on my shoulders.Im done with it now. Now that I dont have anything to do, I kinda wished I had SOMETHING to do. Having work actually saved me the trouble from thinking about other stuff.I cant wait for everything to be over.I really really cant wait.
5 Dec 2010
Cartoon ME
Facebook has this thing going on where we are asked to put our childhood all time favourite cartoon charater as our dp. This made me think how things were alot simpler back then. When I was little I was problem free. I think. The only troubles I had would be, not wanting to go to school or something like that.Thats as far as it gets.
As we got older we learn more things, we always have the urge of trying out new stuff. And at times we get a little rebellious. The older we get, the more decisions we have to make for ourselves. And this is one of the many tough things that a person has to go through as we get older.
I wonder if I can start things over. Or maybe have something new that can make me feel like a little child again.
Sigh. Things happen for a reason. God has HIS way of testing people.It's suppose to make us a stronger person. So yea. Whatever it is, I'll wait for the day. After a hurricane there's always a rainbow. I'll just wait and see.
Currently. I'm working on my book. Doing it as fast as I can. Can't believe I procastinated. Sheeshh.
As we got older we learn more things, we always have the urge of trying out new stuff. And at times we get a little rebellious. The older we get, the more decisions we have to make for ourselves. And this is one of the many tough things that a person has to go through as we get older.
I wonder if I can start things over. Or maybe have something new that can make me feel like a little child again.
Sigh. Things happen for a reason. God has HIS way of testing people.It's suppose to make us a stronger person. So yea. Whatever it is, I'll wait for the day. After a hurricane there's always a rainbow. I'll just wait and see.
Currently. I'm working on my book. Doing it as fast as I can. Can't believe I procastinated. Sheeshh.
24 Nov 2010
Understand
How to make people understand?
As it stands, I simply can't. Maybe its just the way I say things?
One example, when I teach. I say the same thing about 10 times my students still don't get what I'm trying to make them understand.SIGH.
Another example is, to make HIM understand. Im guessing even if I were to write a million words essay on what I want him to understand I dont think he will ever understand.SIGH.
If only I can crawl out of my skin and just go to a happy place and never to return. I'm not sad or anything.I just wish people would actually stop and think and comprehend what I'm trying to say.
I have something planned out this weekend. Hopefully that will take my mind off things for abit.
Gotta work on my sample.Unfortunately I cant think properly. Who is to blame? SH*T
As it stands, I simply can't. Maybe its just the way I say things?
One example, when I teach. I say the same thing about 10 times my students still don't get what I'm trying to make them understand.SIGH.
Another example is, to make HIM understand. Im guessing even if I were to write a million words essay on what I want him to understand I dont think he will ever understand.SIGH.
If only I can crawl out of my skin and just go to a happy place and never to return. I'm not sad or anything.I just wish people would actually stop and think and comprehend what I'm trying to say.
I have something planned out this weekend. Hopefully that will take my mind off things for abit.
Gotta work on my sample.Unfortunately I cant think properly. Who is to blame? SH*T
18 Nov 2010
Pronto
My lappy keeps on acting up on me!!!Gowdddd...
Anyhoots,helleww..
U noe how I always begin my post with nothing much has happened yedder yedder yedder...Well not tonight. I got chunks of stuff to do before december ends. Awesome yes. Stressful yes.
One of the many things that I'm working on (eseh) is I got this offer to produce a book. Can't really elaborate on how what and when. But what I can say now is, my brain is basically nothing but a hollow black hole. I simply just do not know where to begin and how to begin. I did some readings and looked up for some stuff from the internet and ended up getting more confused.Most prolly Rahim would know how to do this.I think.I'm not sure. He seems like a person who can do everything tho.Who is Rahim? He is one of the section leaders in our department. A very charismatic intellectual outstanding middle aged man. Whom I wish to be like one day. Heheh.
Anyway, I need inspiration pronto!!
Anyhoots,helleww..
U noe how I always begin my post with nothing much has happened yedder yedder yedder...Well not tonight. I got chunks of stuff to do before december ends. Awesome yes. Stressful yes.
One of the many things that I'm working on (eseh) is I got this offer to produce a book. Can't really elaborate on how what and when. But what I can say now is, my brain is basically nothing but a hollow black hole. I simply just do not know where to begin and how to begin. I did some readings and looked up for some stuff from the internet and ended up getting more confused.Most prolly Rahim would know how to do this.I think.I'm not sure. He seems like a person who can do everything tho.Who is Rahim? He is one of the section leaders in our department. A very charismatic intellectual outstanding middle aged man. Whom I wish to be like one day. Heheh.
Anyway, I need inspiration pronto!!
9 Nov 2010
Maybe just maybe
She stood there as her tears dropped.
She called out for help but she was screaming in silence.
She then sat, her visions blurry, thinking that maybe its just time.
For her to be independant for her to survive, on her own, unguarded, unprotected.
It maybe tough, maybe just maybe it is what's worth doing.
There's more to life than this she figured.
And so she said goodbye my friend, goodbye my lover.
Here is where the story ends.
She called out for help but she was screaming in silence.
She then sat, her visions blurry, thinking that maybe its just time.
For her to be independant for her to survive, on her own, unguarded, unprotected.
It maybe tough, maybe just maybe it is what's worth doing.
There's more to life than this she figured.
And so she said goodbye my friend, goodbye my lover.
Here is where the story ends.
8 Nov 2010
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