Wouldn't it be nice if I can actually write as much as I write here about the development of science centers or impact of science centers to the community or variation of learning or anything on inquiry based learning. I am shallow. Nonsense.
Frustrations after frustrations.
I went to sleep frustrated and woke up in the morning with a headache. I arrived home from work frustrated with a headache. Wasn't really a good day. I've been through worse though. I was/am in abit of a situation, which kinda made me wonder on how to be a good leader or what actually makes you a good leader. So I asked my old time comrade Google.
Afew things I managed to grasp as I read through some site which I think every leader SHOULD have,
1. A leader also needs to function in an orderly and purposeful manner in
situations of uncertainty. People look to the leader during times of
uncertainty and unfamiliarity and find reassurance and security when the
leader portrays confidence and a positive demeanor
Article Source: http://EzineArticles.com/59305
I was bombarded with questions which made me just stop saying shit. Seriously. The questions kinda made me doubted myself and this cloud of uncertainties started building up behind my ass. I mean, where do I go from here then? Is a leader suppose to doubt the capability of his/her staff to an extend where the inferior would just end up not wanting to proceed with a certain project proposal? Or should a leader direct the inferior to the right path and portrays a little assurance? Lets say, with my current designation would it portray incompetency if I ask a little help from my boss? I mean, to what extend can I ask for help and NOT ask for help and think for myself and have my boss think for me? I was just quite disappointed with how the discussion went today. Kinda makes me wonder whether I didn't negotiate well enough or my boss has this weird leadership procedure.
2. They are bold. Winston Churchill states that courage is the virtue on
which all others virtue rest on. Good leaders are bold enough to chase
after their dreams. Although the fears are real, a daring leader pursues
them regardless of the fears
I am quite confident at certain times. I raise the stake quite high sometimes, it comes back to me and bite me on the ass. But in life, it's about taking chances right? If you wanabe good or outstanding, you're gona have to put yourself at risk right? How are we to move forward if you'd rather stay in your comfort zone? Yeah bright daring ideas might be thrown about around the conference table but when it comes to actually doing it, you take a step back, what's the f**king point of discussing about it and in the end your not implementing it? My confidence was ripped apart today cause of the fear that my boss is having. Can't we make adjustments if something bad were to happen in the future?
3. Strong leaders have effective communication skills. They clearly articulate themselves.
It's hard when a leader doesn't really have a clear vision of what he/she wants. If by any chance you are a leader or the head of something, please ensure that you express yourself in a simple manner. And please super ensure that you are extremely clear and please be rigid, not just in your head but in your inferior's head as well. You don't just say you want chocolate ice cream and suddenly change to vanilla after a person has already prepared chocolate for you. You get what I'm saying?
I have alot more to say, but I think it's best for me to stop here. I might just end up sounding like I'm condemning somebody which I'm not. It just makes me wonder whether this case is caused by the lack of proper leadership skills or lack of negotiation and critical thinking skills.
I know there is something at the end of the rainbow. But how do I cross it?
On a different note, a friend asked, what's your definition of a soulmate?
So again I asked my old time comrade Google.
Google gave me one good definition, mostly because it has RATIO in it. I know. It's mind blowing.
Love Economics Definition of Soulmates
The benefit to cost ratio is called your soulmate ratio.
Mathematically, the ratio is written as:
Its a Sunday and I am home trying to figure out what to do. I got a hair cut earlier today. One thing about me is, I am very particular about my hair. Like very very. I have been going to the same hair dresser since I was ten. She's really good I can say. But today I figured I wanted to try my friend's hair dresser. To my surprise, she's actually quite good.
Speaking of hair, I'm gona share with you readers the revolution of my hair approximately since 2007 til today. I admit some of my hair styles are a BIG no no. Some are heh..not so bad. Some are, quite pretty. So lets take a ride to what I think might be an embarrassing ride for me.
This was back in 2007. Not so bad I may say.
2008. Still long and straight. Just no fringe.
At one point in 2008. Still long but layered.
2009. Sudden urge for super short bangs. Still layered.
Midst of 2009. There goes some of the hair.
2009. Figured I wanted shorter hair.
2010. It got a little longer. Decided to get a fringe.
Pictures below are my hairDOs between late 2010 til 2011.
And TODAY it is like this :)
You can say towards the end, I kinda have the same hair do. Don't you think?
Moving on to an unrelated topic. I was in the shower and suddenly I came to realize that I use the word ASS alot when I'm angry. It's kinda extraordinary how the word ASS, when you add an adjective to it, it means a totally different thing. Let me give you a few examples and you'll get what I mean.
1.Stupid ass
2.Fake ass
3.Lieing ass
4.Asswipe
5.Dumb ass
6.Rich ass
7.F**king ass
8.Jack ass
9.Cute ass
You see you see..Heheh..Something to think about now aint it? Teeheee..
Can I just say something?
Life is great as it is. What do you think?
Toodles.
Oh before that, here's a song for you with the word ASS in it. :) Cheers.
Been trying to recover from my cold and haven't been doing any work outs as well as healthy eating. Sigh. Seriously, I need to be caned!
This week has been interesting I can say. I found out STUFF which kinda made me think about marriage, kids and anything along that line. I just don't get how a person would have the heart to disregard the existence of their spouse or maybe kids. I don't get how men works sometimes. I have mentioned this many times before. If guys think girls are complicated try being in our shoes and try to understand a freakin dude. Like seriously. It'll make you go WTF?? *excuse my French this evening. Oh well I don't know. I keep on encountering jack asses that I think most dudes are jack asses. *encounter doesn't necessarily mean being in a relationship with- in this content. What's worse is, they are too blind to see that there's something wrong going on in their heads. Like seriously. Is a smack on the head necessary,ha? What I went through and what I have seen have not been a good sight lately. Yes, there are people that just recently got hitched and what not. I am happy for them. I reckon they are the good ones that are on the verge of extinction. And I seriously pray they wouldn't end up like hungry for more wives kind of dudes. Where am I going with this? I'm not really sure. What I do know is I will pray to god for me, my sisters and my girlfriends to not end up with a jack ass. Amen.
We are reaching the end of January. I feel like I am running out of time. For what you may ask? For things that I'm suppose to work on. The ASPAC is coming. Oh dear. I haven't done much, which I should. My boss told me to read alot. Articles etc. Here's the thing. I'm not a big fan of reading. I can read, if the thing is SUPER good. Or if I have to *which is the case SOON. One of the strongest reasons why I have a degree in Math and not anything else is cause in Math you don't have to read alot. I have this book titled Pictures of Lily by Paige Toon, I started reading it like 6 months ago and towards the end of the book I just STOP reading it and I have about 30 pages left. Why did I stop? I'm not really sure why. Am I ever gona finish it? Maybe, I don't know. So yeah. Well I can't really escape reading. Like I said have to do my research on things. I have to read like a 5 pages long of terms and conditions of an exhibit leasing contract. Gah!
When you have goals you kinda have to work for it right? I'm trying to make some changes. I just never thought it would be this hard.
Oh before I go can I just confess something. I actually bought another planner. Gah! It's just too cute and I think is very convenient. *so are my other planners.So yeah.Whatever.
I read through my old posts the other day and came across one that's quite funny. I mentioned something about my lecturer and wrote something that made me giggle. Check it out again. Heheh. Mathematicians are silly. Once my math lecturer said in his German accent ,"Emm, I'm not good with numbers.." In my head I was like "Sayy waaattt.."
Im gona go straight to the fact that I didn't go to work today. Yes AGAIN. I caught a fever and I'm pretty much sure from a friend. The thing with us, when I say us I mean me and my sibs, we were trained by our mom not to take in meds everytime we're sick. Unless it's serious. Except for my brother though. He's a chemist to be, I think, so he knows the compositions of a panadol and that makes it ok to take them in every time he has a cold and what not.
I agree with my mother though. She might not have studied intense chemistry but kinda has a point at one point or another. So til now I try not to take in meds every time I'm down with a fever or period cramps. But I do take in the alternatives. For instance, if I run down with a fever I take in yakult and when I have period cramps I take in yoghurts. It does work, sometimes. Incase it doesn't, taking in two panadols would already be sufficient for me.
So I just stayed in bed and finished watching one season of Modern Family. It's quite ok. Not so funny. But it did fill my time.
As I'm composing this post, my potato porridge is cooking on the kitchen stove. Some of you might have never heard of it. It's just potato and rice. Simple but nice. :) I was out of the blue craving for chocolate and Italian food. Since those things are, for the time being, out of reach, I figured porridge would do. I'll eat something fancy tomorrow. Maybe. I duno.
Did some cool stuff a few days back. I went to the beach and watched fireworks in conjunction to the CNY. You wouldn't have guest that people actually gather at Jalan Maulana, yes the street side, just to catch the fireworks. Well I didn't know about this until my friend told me and so we went. It was my first time and to my surprise people from different races, not just the Chinese, actually took the initiative to drop by the street and witness this simple yet fun event. You could see people of different ages already waiting there and anticipate the fireworks from 11 pm and they actually stayed til 1 am in the morning. Although my friend did mention that it was better last year. I still had a good time.
Hopefully I'll feel alot better tomorrow. I kinda need to finish some work.
Before I wrap up, random photos moment please.
Green water beach
My Vampire Bite
Cutie Pie.a.k.a Steffy's Nephew
Twirling fireworks that lighted up the night sky
For personal entertainment you may watch these silly videos below. This is how funny videos should be like.
Have you ever had the feeling that you simply can't do something?It's not that you can't CAN'T, it's just hard and takes alot, very much alot of your time. The people around you would say, do come and see us if you need help and when you actually do and see them, they would ask too many questions. Instead of finding solutions to your doubts you end with more doubts. Yours truly is currently under such situation and I do not, I repeat, I DO NOT like it. I wana cry *Sob sob.
My friend thinks I'm organize. I thought so too. I'm starting to think, not up to the standard of my job requirement. I have a planner. *I have unusual interest towards fancy planners or note books. I am not a hoarder or anything like that, but I kinda have like, I don't know about six 2012 planners *and actually thought of buying more, the cute ones from a bookstore. Got them for free and I couldn't resist taking more than I need i.e ONE. Since most of them are kinda thick and eating up my ever so BIG room space, I'm gona have to give some away. I think I kinda went off track a lil bit didn't I? As I was saying, got a planner and all, still I am not as efficient and sufficient as I want myself to be. My tuition classes are starting soon and I am kinda very anxious about how I am gonabe able to divide my time between my jobs and my trainings. Yes the weekend is there and yes I do not teach 7 days straight but having two jobs kinda make you suffer mental fatigue at the end of the day. Lots of negativity flying about for today's post ey.
And do you know what else is hard? Delegating and leading. Managing and planning. Gah! I need a break from reality. Where's my spaceman?
Incase someone sees him, please pass on this message.
Dear Nina's Spaceman,
Please bring me to Disney land, where I can see fireworks and eat colorful candies and I wouldn't ever get diabetes. I wana shop in New York and go to Hollywood and never be broke. I wana eat pizza with lots and lots of cheese. And when I come back from my dream vacation I want my work to be done and have my table and papers organized.
Thank You.
P/s Please leave Easyway's Green apple jelly green tea on my table. I have not drank it for sooo long I forgot how it taste like. And Dr Pepper too please.
Dear readers,
Thanks for actually reading my close to schizophrenic post for today. This is just momentary *I think. :)
My day was long and still humid.How was yours? *it'd be cool if someone random actually answers me. Hmm..
I said I would come back and do a review on the power shock right? I've used it 3 times now since I last mentioned that. I did try to blog, its just that my brain just starts shutting down after 9 pm.
So I'll just do a quick review now, one word. Awesome! It works. It really does. My body doesn't ache as much, even after the second day of work out day. Which means muscle repair is accelerated and it gives you the boost of energy just like it says on the supplements review website. I'm quite lucky that the supplement actually suits my body system. Cause it does happen, if the supplement doesn't suit you, it kinda makes you feel sick instead. If you taste it for the first time, it does taste kinda funny but eventually you get use to the taste.If you can drink red bull then you can drink this.
Went for circuit today. FINALLY! I had my power shock with me. *Smiling big big, thanks to YOU. And I managed to complete my circuit. A tiny improvement is still an improvement. I would write more about it, but my eyes are already getting kinda heavy.
All in all, the power shock is good and circuit was good.
I have alot more going on in my head right now that I would like to jot down here. But eyes too sleepy. Probably I'll save it for some other time. Maybe tomorrow. I don't know.
If only I can do this to this particular person. Would definitely make my day, for the next hundred years maybe.
Random note. My mum is starting to have a beyond ordinary form of sentiment towards our unintentional house cats and I find that very new and unusual. When I'm free, I'll try to do a research on what is causing this peculiar development.
To wrap up, my day was long and humid.How about yours?
Hellew. When you read that hellew, picture me waving at you.The impact's better aint it? :)
Its about 2 plus in the morning and I suddenly have the urge to blog.
A friend or better yet my TRAINER explained to me a number of things that has to do with trying to lose weight and get a toner body. Why do I bring up this topic? My girl friend is trying to help her fiance to lose weight. In a way to support him to lose some pounds. Which I personally think is a really good initiative for both parties.
So she's wondering what are the good supplements that can enhance these changes that her fiance is trying to make. For those who are maybe having the same trouble as my friend does,you might wana read further.
Most basic supplement regime for those who are planning to go on a diet and lose some pounds are as follows.
1. Creatine which according to my trainer, helps to produce lean mass. I know what some of you might be wondering about. What do you mean by lean mass? Lean mass is just muscles without fats.
2. Whey isolate. Whey isolate helps the body to produce muscles. These muscles will then act as a fat burning machine in your body.
3.Fat burner. Fat burners not only burn excessive fats in your body it increases your metabolismic rate as well and suppresses your appetite.
These supplements doesn't work on it's own. You have to incorporate them with proper diet and trainings as well.
Incase you need to know more about these supplements, google is just a click away :)
Now that I have my exercise routines on the go, I'm gona have to look after my food intake. Which I dread doing the most. I'm going to miss burgers, sweets, pizzas and fried chicken so much. Very much. I wasn't told to literally cut off everything that I just mentioned. I can still have em. Prolly just once a week. But still you know. STILL! But then again nothing comes easy right? I know that, you know that.Together with that, in a month and the half I'm suppose to be able to show something. I'm not gona tell you what it is here. Just incase I might not be able to achieve it, I wana save myself the embarrassment. I'll try to work for it though. I'm just gona have to try right? I got my supps. I was told how to do my trainings and I was already told what to eat and what not to eat. How could I possibly still not achieve what I was told to achieve right?Right?? Awh man, the pressure. The thing with me is I can be a lazy ass. Like seriously. But then again, it is for my own good. Lets just give it a shot. And not think too much about it. That always helps.
It was a productive day for me today.
Cleaned my car
Had healthy dinner after a good hill training
Did henna for cousin's wedding
How about you?
Oh by the way. I went to the the gym yesterday. And I had the power shock for the first time. Will write my personal review on it probably tomorrow. Cause my body usually aches the most two days after workout day. So now is too soon to tell whether it works or not. But it did give me some sort of good power boost when I did my training. Could be just my mind playing a mind game with me. Lets just wait.
