So here is the thing, sometimes it takes a few slaps on the face for one to realize that he or she is on the wrong side of the road. Consequences of being on the wrong side of the road are as follows:
1. You might hurt yourself
2. You might hurt others
3. You might just die
I was on the wrong side of the road. But today I have certainly realized that I do not wanabe on the wrong side of the road anymore. I've made a mistake of almost going back there and I didn't feel good. I was overwhelmed with guilt that I have not felt since I was a kid. Not too sure what about. But yes it was awful.
A person is always, I mean ALWAYS given a choice. Personally, I think God will never put us in a situation whereby an option is what we only have. Well most of the time, it is never like that. A person would always be given the chance to choose between doing things right and doing things wrong. I, as much as I can, wana do things right. Always be on the right side of the road, to always know what I want, what I need and to know what I don't need.
I am finally turning over a new leaf. I am excited and I am terrified at the same time. It's a weird profound feeling that brings a smile on my face and a couple of frowns as well. But yet, all in all it is still good.
I believe I have made the correct choice. If this new leaf doesn't turn out so good I can always turn over a new page.
*Tee hee
3 Aug 2012
29 Jul 2012
Flippin' Butterfly
Hello,
Being at work on a Sunday today gave me the urge to blog a little bit.
My favorite staff is leaving to pursue her degree. I can't really stop her. I want to but that would be very selfish of me. She did say it's hard for her as well. Another staff of ours is making a mess out of this place. He is kinda 'Special' so I can't really say much cause I know he means well. I have a project coming up. I can say I am quite nervous about it. *When was I never when it comes to these things.
I think this is the first time in Ramadhan I am posting something here. Ramadhan has been very gentle with me. Alhamdulilah. I am surprise that I am very active this year regardless of being hungry and sleepy.Hmm interesting. There's always something that I wana do. I might be conducting an extra class for my students later. Where is all this energy coming from? I am not too sure myself. Can't really say that I do not feel tired working extra time during this fasting month. But I kinda just want to.
In response to my previous post, some questions were answered. Tee hee..
Here's what I have to say:
U make me smile like a flippin butterfly..u make me shy like a girl on sugar high.
Cheers Mademoiselle
Being at work on a Sunday today gave me the urge to blog a little bit.
My favorite staff is leaving to pursue her degree. I can't really stop her. I want to but that would be very selfish of me. She did say it's hard for her as well. Another staff of ours is making a mess out of this place. He is kinda 'Special' so I can't really say much cause I know he means well. I have a project coming up. I can say I am quite nervous about it. *When was I never when it comes to these things.
I think this is the first time in Ramadhan I am posting something here. Ramadhan has been very gentle with me. Alhamdulilah. I am surprise that I am very active this year regardless of being hungry and sleepy.Hmm interesting. There's always something that I wana do. I might be conducting an extra class for my students later. Where is all this energy coming from? I am not too sure myself. Can't really say that I do not feel tired working extra time during this fasting month. But I kinda just want to.
In response to my previous post, some questions were answered. Tee hee..
Here's what I have to say:
U make me smile like a flippin butterfly..u make me shy like a girl on sugar high.
Cheers Mademoiselle
22 Jul 2012
Believe to achieve
So,
Here is the thing. I am in quite of a situation. I'm not too sure if it's a situation, probably I'm just making a big deal out of it. But I somehow keep on thinking about it everyday. If only everything is self explanatory. It saves me the trouble of trying to figure things out myself, probably saves me the trouble of making a fool out of myself as well. Which by the way, I personally think I can get an award for making a fool out of myself. There are times when I think I am the queen of fools. Oh well.
I can't really say what exactly I am going through here. Cause it would be very odd. I am not so much the type that kiss and tell. I think. I do tell at one point or another, to my bestie. When everything has reached a point where it needs to be spilled.
What do I want now? What am I gona do now?
I want answers or signs or something anything. I wana know whats going on. Cause as it stands I'm feeling kinda hopeless and lost. Am I expecting so much more? Probably not, cause I'm not too sure if I have fully come to an agreement with myself that these sort of things are rigid and long lasting. So what are the actions to be taken? I suppose for the time being I can wait. Who knows I'll get tired of waiting.
Blegh... Truth be told I'm not up for another mid life complication. Why do I always get myself sucked into these things? Seriously? Sometimes I wonder what the hell is wrong with me. I'm probably cursed. Can I just live in a box where any sort of sentiments are non existence? That would be nice. Again saves me the trouble of having wants, needs and desires.
If only you would just open up and say something. I don't read minds. Hmm. I would pay just to have him talk. Regardless of what ever that is gona come out.
I realize the difference between me now and me then is that I am more prone to saying things out, especially about what I think. Or when I disagree about something. One good example was, when I snapped at my boss telling him to talk nicely. Seriously, me then would never even think of doing something so rude. So yeah, I kinda made the same mistake (Not too sure if it was a mistake) to a certain person. I didn't snapped or anything not at first atleast. Since then things have been different. But that is just how I roll now. Didn't mean to break anyone's heart but asking is better then assuming. Living in denial is the last thing you wana do despite how hurtful the truth may get.
Ah well. Only time will tell I suppose. If the person refuses to open up, I guess that's that. It's such a shame though cause I've never met a person like that before and I would love to get to know him better.
Come to think of it, this could be a good lesson for a person like me or perhaps you too. I kinda just came across two different types of people. One that easily spills his heart out and one that just doesn't. If you ask me which is a keeper? Honestly, I have no idea.
Til then.
Believe to achieve.
Here is the thing. I am in quite of a situation. I'm not too sure if it's a situation, probably I'm just making a big deal out of it. But I somehow keep on thinking about it everyday. If only everything is self explanatory. It saves me the trouble of trying to figure things out myself, probably saves me the trouble of making a fool out of myself as well. Which by the way, I personally think I can get an award for making a fool out of myself. There are times when I think I am the queen of fools. Oh well.
I can't really say what exactly I am going through here. Cause it would be very odd. I am not so much the type that kiss and tell. I think. I do tell at one point or another, to my bestie. When everything has reached a point where it needs to be spilled.
What do I want now? What am I gona do now?
I want answers or signs or something anything. I wana know whats going on. Cause as it stands I'm feeling kinda hopeless and lost. Am I expecting so much more? Probably not, cause I'm not too sure if I have fully come to an agreement with myself that these sort of things are rigid and long lasting. So what are the actions to be taken? I suppose for the time being I can wait. Who knows I'll get tired of waiting.
Blegh... Truth be told I'm not up for another mid life complication. Why do I always get myself sucked into these things? Seriously? Sometimes I wonder what the hell is wrong with me. I'm probably cursed. Can I just live in a box where any sort of sentiments are non existence? That would be nice. Again saves me the trouble of having wants, needs and desires.
If only you would just open up and say something. I don't read minds. Hmm. I would pay just to have him talk. Regardless of what ever that is gona come out.
I realize the difference between me now and me then is that I am more prone to saying things out, especially about what I think. Or when I disagree about something. One good example was, when I snapped at my boss telling him to talk nicely. Seriously, me then would never even think of doing something so rude. So yeah, I kinda made the same mistake (Not too sure if it was a mistake) to a certain person. I didn't snapped or anything not at first atleast. Since then things have been different. But that is just how I roll now. Didn't mean to break anyone's heart but asking is better then assuming. Living in denial is the last thing you wana do despite how hurtful the truth may get.
Ah well. Only time will tell I suppose. If the person refuses to open up, I guess that's that. It's such a shame though cause I've never met a person like that before and I would love to get to know him better.
Come to think of it, this could be a good lesson for a person like me or perhaps you too. I kinda just came across two different types of people. One that easily spills his heart out and one that just doesn't. If you ask me which is a keeper? Honestly, I have no idea.
Til then.
Believe to achieve.
8 Jul 2012
What fascinates me
Hi,
It intrigues me how one can make me wonder a million things. I can say that I am a person that thinks alot. Sometimes. Fascinating how god managed create mix of emotions and how these emotions are triggered by different occurrences.
For instance, this family as in my family weren't a big fan of cats. They pee and climb up on cars and leave footprints. Very much annoying. Until late last year, I do not really remember, two cats dropped by our place. They were our neighbors cats that wouldn't wana go back to their own home. So with time they managed to steal our hearts and they kinda became a PR at our home. We learned to love these cats and became quite attached. Two cats, namely Tuli and Gamuk. Sad story, Gamuk died afew days ago. It was found dead in our drain. I never thought I would cry but I did. My mum and my sisters as well. And to think we didn't even like cats. See how fascinating that is. How feelings can change from one form to another? Just like energy. There is one difference though, energy can't disappear but feelings can. If only there's a scientific explanation to the transition of feelings. Perhaps we can find a controlling agent to stop the transition from occuring.
I was browsing through my facebook timeline and came across posts and videos which I don't even remember posting. Some of the things I posted sounded quite smart. Heheh. Some were just simply corny and dorky. Heheh. Oh well. Got me back to the past a little bit there. How things have changed since the last six years. I was thinking to myself, if I was given the chance to go back into time, I wouldn't change anything. All the mistakes and regrets, they are memories made. And the good times are simply irreplaceable.
I'm just gone face life one day at time and probably hope for the best. Gona go for a holiday trip. Can't wait. It has been awhile.
I think that is all for tonight.
P/S: I sometimes have a big mouth. Now I have to finish his slides. Hit self on the head.
It intrigues me how one can make me wonder a million things. I can say that I am a person that thinks alot. Sometimes. Fascinating how god managed create mix of emotions and how these emotions are triggered by different occurrences.
For instance, this family as in my family weren't a big fan of cats. They pee and climb up on cars and leave footprints. Very much annoying. Until late last year, I do not really remember, two cats dropped by our place. They were our neighbors cats that wouldn't wana go back to their own home. So with time they managed to steal our hearts and they kinda became a PR at our home. We learned to love these cats and became quite attached. Two cats, namely Tuli and Gamuk. Sad story, Gamuk died afew days ago. It was found dead in our drain. I never thought I would cry but I did. My mum and my sisters as well. And to think we didn't even like cats. See how fascinating that is. How feelings can change from one form to another? Just like energy. There is one difference though, energy can't disappear but feelings can. If only there's a scientific explanation to the transition of feelings. Perhaps we can find a controlling agent to stop the transition from occuring.
I was browsing through my facebook timeline and came across posts and videos which I don't even remember posting. Some of the things I posted sounded quite smart. Heheh. Some were just simply corny and dorky. Heheh. Oh well. Got me back to the past a little bit there. How things have changed since the last six years. I was thinking to myself, if I was given the chance to go back into time, I wouldn't change anything. All the mistakes and regrets, they are memories made. And the good times are simply irreplaceable.
I'm just gone face life one day at time and probably hope for the best. Gona go for a holiday trip. Can't wait. It has been awhile.
I think that is all for tonight.
P/S: I sometimes have a big mouth. Now I have to finish his slides. Hit self on the head.
24 Jun 2012
The grass is always greener on the other side
Hey,
I m currently watching Pretty Little Liars online and came across a really nice song.
It's called let go of her hand by Right the stars. I am really getting annoyed with A. Seriously.
Anyhoots, my car is back in the workshop. Sigh. I had it sent last week and kinda have to send it again last Saturday. I have no idea how they do their job there. I am quite lucky to have a friend to help me out with sorting it out. I reckon because I am a lady the mechanics from the workshop were telling me things that were not quite right. Thinking I might just not find out. I might not know but I do know people that knows. So silly.
I just met this friend. I'm not too sure why he's very willing to help me sort out my car. Don't get me wrong I do appreciate what he's doing. He's even willing to skip work just to go to the workshop first thing tomorrow. Hmm. He's pretty funny and very unusual in a way. Not too sure how to describe this person. Oh well. Thank You again friend. You might not read this but I'm sure god would know how to repay you.
I have something in mind that I would like to share before I leave.
She fell for one and her feelings were left to die.
She finally sees the greener grass on the other side.
She might not be able to stay and lay. On the grass so soft so green.
But atleast she got her feelings back.
At ease she feels, her past fading.
To shades of gray and blurry rays.
She praises GOD for the lessons, she praises GOD for the experience.
For what she went through there are reasons.
To be wiser, stronger and bolder.
With that, here it officially ends.
Signing out.
Yours Truely.
I m currently watching Pretty Little Liars online and came across a really nice song.
It's called let go of her hand by Right the stars. I am really getting annoyed with A. Seriously.
Anyhoots, my car is back in the workshop. Sigh. I had it sent last week and kinda have to send it again last Saturday. I have no idea how they do their job there. I am quite lucky to have a friend to help me out with sorting it out. I reckon because I am a lady the mechanics from the workshop were telling me things that were not quite right. Thinking I might just not find out. I might not know but I do know people that knows. So silly.
I just met this friend. I'm not too sure why he's very willing to help me sort out my car. Don't get me wrong I do appreciate what he's doing. He's even willing to skip work just to go to the workshop first thing tomorrow. Hmm. He's pretty funny and very unusual in a way. Not too sure how to describe this person. Oh well. Thank You again friend. You might not read this but I'm sure god would know how to repay you.
I have something in mind that I would like to share before I leave.
She fell for one and her feelings were left to die.
She finally sees the greener grass on the other side.
She might not be able to stay and lay. On the grass so soft so green.
But atleast she got her feelings back.
At ease she feels, her past fading.
To shades of gray and blurry rays.
She praises GOD for the lessons, she praises GOD for the experience.
For what she went through there are reasons.
To be wiser, stronger and bolder.
With that, here it officially ends.
Signing out.
Yours Truely.
18 Jun 2012
Drive By
Hi *Smiling Big big*
A little bit of update from my side. Camp is over. We managed to go through it. Pat self at the back. It was fun I may say. About 80 kids turned up of different characters and attitudes. And boy, some of them were really smart. I had my panic moment as well. These kids were like 9 to 12 years old. So they practically cry about anything. Stomach ache, missing handphones, missing their mummies, hungry, sleepy. You name it! It didn't turn out bad though. The kids did have fun. My staff were once again very helpful.
I reminisced about some stuff this particular day and I missed having a nose stud. And guess what, yeap! Pierced my nose again. Just a day before the camp. It doesn't hurt as bad as when I did the first time. And truth be told I'm thinking of getting more on my ears. We'll see. Maybe next week.
Can I be random now?
I have come across quite a number of different type of people. I recently came across a very unusual one. He's not weird or anything. Fairly interesting. But I can't seem to through him. Not a very usual guy that spills everything about himself. Kinda have to dig stuff out from him. Which I kinda find very interesting. Makes me wonder if he's like a loan shark or something or a gangster that runs a drug company. I don't know. At this point probably I will never find out. Oh well. It doesn't really matter. We had a good chat. I guess that's that.
Not that he will ever read this, I would like to convey this message to him anyway.
I had a good talk. Not always I would feel comfortable talking to a person I just met. And your ride, very hot. I wana marry it. Till we meet again friend.*Smiling Big Big*
That is all for tonight. Tomorrow awaits. And I miss my car.
A little bit of update from my side. Camp is over. We managed to go through it. Pat self at the back. It was fun I may say. About 80 kids turned up of different characters and attitudes. And boy, some of them were really smart. I had my panic moment as well. These kids were like 9 to 12 years old. So they practically cry about anything. Stomach ache, missing handphones, missing their mummies, hungry, sleepy. You name it! It didn't turn out bad though. The kids did have fun. My staff were once again very helpful.
I reminisced about some stuff this particular day and I missed having a nose stud. And guess what, yeap! Pierced my nose again. Just a day before the camp. It doesn't hurt as bad as when I did the first time. And truth be told I'm thinking of getting more on my ears. We'll see. Maybe next week.
Spot the nose stud.
Can I be random now?
I have come across quite a number of different type of people. I recently came across a very unusual one. He's not weird or anything. Fairly interesting. But I can't seem to through him. Not a very usual guy that spills everything about himself. Kinda have to dig stuff out from him. Which I kinda find very interesting. Makes me wonder if he's like a loan shark or something or a gangster that runs a drug company. I don't know. At this point probably I will never find out. Oh well. It doesn't really matter. We had a good chat. I guess that's that.
Not that he will ever read this, I would like to convey this message to him anyway.
I had a good talk. Not always I would feel comfortable talking to a person I just met. And your ride, very hot. I wana marry it. Till we meet again friend.*Smiling Big Big*
That is all for tonight. Tomorrow awaits. And I miss my car.
7 Jun 2012
Look Before You Leap
Dear Readers,
So...How u doin?
It is now June as you all know. June means camp is just around the corner. The school holiday is just around the corner and traffic game is JUST around the corner. And HE, as usual, is not helpful at all as USUAL. Ah well. Something good is bound to happen I'm sure. Why do I say this? Cause a rainbow always comes after the rain.
Can I just say something. I have cleaned the room my self. I didn't make a big fuss about it. Sheesh. The things that comes out from your mouth, most of the time they are nonsense. Nonsense I tell you.
The people you have to put up with in your life. *sigh*
I know I'm not "Miss-all-perfecto". Atleast before I say things or do things I would think first. Was it never told to everybody to LOOK before you LEAP? If knives can kill words are worse, it gives prolonged mental and physical pain. I'd rather be dead. Seriously. I have no idea how some people think sometimes.
*Sigh* Ah well. I'm still alive. I guess I'll manage.
I've come across quite a number of NOT SO nice people. I wish I could just give each and everyone of them a piece of my mind. But that will never be the case.
I did something very drama queen-ish afew days ago. Not one bit I regret doing it. It's just normal that at one point you would blow if someone keeps on pressing your wrong button. There are times when I put too much faith on someone. What I learn today is, not everyone will turn out to be the person you expect them to be. That's just how life is. It's tough, wheather you like it or not, you're gona have to grow some balls and stomach the son of a gun. Grow some vagina how my brother would put it. *Don't ask me why.It's something that he got from 9gag* Anyhoots. It is what it is. After it happened my heart raced and my face turned hot and that only happens when I'm super MAD. I guess I was. Cause I remember hitting and kicking some stuff. Oh dear. I'm turning manly by the day. I don't think I wana ever do that again. Kinda lost myself for a moment there.
The camp is starting soon which means late nights, kids and office as my home will conquer. I'm not too sure how I'm gona juggle those things with tuition. One day at a time I reckon? All the best to yours truely. My job is good. How I wish we have a more charismatic leader. Then it'll be perfect. We kinda have one that tells us to look for a new job. And says that he wants to quit and he's actually looking for a new job. Rubbish I tell you. Its an utter nonsense. And he expects us to work like a top notch worker when he's there demotivating us with his gibberish? I doubt he notices. Think before you speak. Think! *sigh* Why god, why??
I got work to do. Maybe I should stop here. Need to get it done before the clock strikes 12am.
I got an iPod Nano. *Not in a way I thought I would* But yeah, I got an iPod Nano. Now I can go running with my music efficiently playing.
Warmest Regards,
Yours Truely.
So...How u doin?
It is now June as you all know. June means camp is just around the corner. The school holiday is just around the corner and traffic game is JUST around the corner. And HE, as usual, is not helpful at all as USUAL. Ah well. Something good is bound to happen I'm sure. Why do I say this? Cause a rainbow always comes after the rain.
Can I just say something. I have cleaned the room my self. I didn't make a big fuss about it. Sheesh. The things that comes out from your mouth, most of the time they are nonsense. Nonsense I tell you.
The people you have to put up with in your life. *sigh*
I know I'm not "Miss-all-perfecto". Atleast before I say things or do things I would think first. Was it never told to everybody to LOOK before you LEAP? If knives can kill words are worse, it gives prolonged mental and physical pain. I'd rather be dead. Seriously. I have no idea how some people think sometimes.
*Sigh* Ah well. I'm still alive. I guess I'll manage.
I've come across quite a number of NOT SO nice people. I wish I could just give each and everyone of them a piece of my mind. But that will never be the case.
I did something very drama queen-ish afew days ago. Not one bit I regret doing it. It's just normal that at one point you would blow if someone keeps on pressing your wrong button. There are times when I put too much faith on someone. What I learn today is, not everyone will turn out to be the person you expect them to be. That's just how life is. It's tough, wheather you like it or not, you're gona have to grow some balls and stomach the son of a gun. Grow some vagina how my brother would put it. *Don't ask me why.It's something that he got from 9gag* Anyhoots. It is what it is. After it happened my heart raced and my face turned hot and that only happens when I'm super MAD. I guess I was. Cause I remember hitting and kicking some stuff. Oh dear. I'm turning manly by the day. I don't think I wana ever do that again. Kinda lost myself for a moment there.
The camp is starting soon which means late nights, kids and office as my home will conquer. I'm not too sure how I'm gona juggle those things with tuition. One day at a time I reckon? All the best to yours truely. My job is good. How I wish we have a more charismatic leader. Then it'll be perfect. We kinda have one that tells us to look for a new job. And says that he wants to quit and he's actually looking for a new job. Rubbish I tell you. Its an utter nonsense. And he expects us to work like a top notch worker when he's there demotivating us with his gibberish? I doubt he notices. Think before you speak. Think! *sigh* Why god, why??
I got work to do. Maybe I should stop here. Need to get it done before the clock strikes 12am.
I got an iPod Nano. *Not in a way I thought I would* But yeah, I got an iPod Nano. Now I can go running with my music efficiently playing.
Warmest Regards,
Yours Truely.
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