What to do when you are angry but you can do nothing about?
SABAR SAJALAH!
28 Nov 2013
13 Oct 2013
Almost is
Spent the whole day (well almost the whole day) doing my project. It was pretty mind boggling cause I had no idea how to use the software. My project is about forecasting the output power of a solar PV system. In this case the ones we have in Seria. I must use this software called R to do it. It is pretty straight forward actually. It's just that, truth be told, I am not so much of a programming person. It is not as hard as JAVA I should say. But still, I have to use all these commands that seem very foreign to my simple mind. With Midah's help, I did manage to do what I was suppose to do. Surprisingly I do understand some of the commands. There are some that I still do NOT though, like as.data.frame. I mean like, WHAT? There are meanings to every commands of course, I just have not gotten my way around that yet.
The semester break's over. School is gona start again tomorrow. Well atleast some weight is lifted away from my shoulders. Just need to work on my report soon. And revise for the exam. I only have one module. So gona try really hard to nail that one.
Currently listening to Almost Is Never Enough. I guess its not that bad. Since I have it on repeat for quite a while now. Feeling really sleepy. I guess today's post is not going to be as informative as I thought it would be.
Well, that is all I guess.
Perhaps I can share afew boring photos. Hehe. :)
The semester break's over. School is gona start again tomorrow. Well atleast some weight is lifted away from my shoulders. Just need to work on my report soon. And revise for the exam. I only have one module. So gona try really hard to nail that one.
Currently listening to Almost Is Never Enough. I guess its not that bad. Since I have it on repeat for quite a while now. Feeling really sleepy. I guess today's post is not going to be as informative as I thought it would be.
Well, that is all I guess.
Perhaps I can share afew boring photos. Hehe. :)
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| That's persistence right there! |
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| Its Grumpy Cat and her brother :) This is not boring! |
10 Oct 2013
6 Oct 2013
I have to say
So! I've not posted anything for a really long time now.
Time has passed and I have developed weird interests nowadays. Not much just one or two.
I bought myself a fixie bike a few days go. Went for a ride earlier. The tyres were a bit lacking of air. Gonna get it filled tomorrow perhaps. The upside of working at where I work. *Smiles* Gona bring the fixie for an hour spin soon.
Keeping fit is still an interest. Yeay. I have also recently started taking El Marino. It is doing me justice. Yeay me!It is probably one of my best investments on a health supplement so far. At this age and doing what I do, I think I do need it. I mean its every girl's dream to stay young and radiant. Just like Zooey Deschanel. She just look so young and pretty and she's already 33. I wanabe just like her :)
Keeping fit, healthy and young is not an easy thing to do. So is keeping yourself sane, contented and civilized. There are alot of things in this world that would really test your mental strength and stability. It is up to you how you wana handle it. Little did we know its things like these are one of the many things that eats up your youth. Hence, you should know how to handle things in your life.
There are days when I think I want to give up on certain things, be a quitter, settle for less and just stay still and be stagnant. But I figured, GOD gave you intelligence not to put it to waste.
I am currently in my second semester of my post grad studies. 2 more semesters to go. That's a year. Seem so long. It is actually. One of the hardest things that I need to cope up with is the drive to continue and excel. I need a cheerleader, like literally. Ah well. At this point, I can only make full use of what I have, my own determination.
Where as for work, I have been doing lots and lots of writing lately. I was thinking to myself, I didn't do my degree to become a journalist. I guess with what I'm currently doing I have the upper hand of doing my school report efficiently. I think. And my photoshop skill is getting better. It's true when they say you do not really practice what you studied.
Hmm..That is all.
I shall leave you with a selfie and a Nina and Friend :)
I still look as young. Hehehe.. :) and I miss my nose stud. Give El Marino a try!
Time has passed and I have developed weird interests nowadays. Not much just one or two.
I bought myself a fixie bike a few days go. Went for a ride earlier. The tyres were a bit lacking of air. Gonna get it filled tomorrow perhaps. The upside of working at where I work. *Smiles* Gona bring the fixie for an hour spin soon.
Keeping fit is still an interest. Yeay. I have also recently started taking El Marino. It is doing me justice. Yeay me!It is probably one of my best investments on a health supplement so far. At this age and doing what I do, I think I do need it. I mean its every girl's dream to stay young and radiant. Just like Zooey Deschanel. She just look so young and pretty and she's already 33. I wanabe just like her :)
There are days when I think I want to give up on certain things, be a quitter, settle for less and just stay still and be stagnant. But I figured, GOD gave you intelligence not to put it to waste.
I am currently in my second semester of my post grad studies. 2 more semesters to go. That's a year. Seem so long. It is actually. One of the hardest things that I need to cope up with is the drive to continue and excel. I need a cheerleader, like literally. Ah well. At this point, I can only make full use of what I have, my own determination.
Where as for work, I have been doing lots and lots of writing lately. I was thinking to myself, I didn't do my degree to become a journalist. I guess with what I'm currently doing I have the upper hand of doing my school report efficiently. I think. And my photoshop skill is getting better. It's true when they say you do not really practice what you studied.
Hmm..That is all.
I shall leave you with a selfie and a Nina and Friend :)
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| Taken in 2011 |
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| Taken in 2013 |
I still look as young. Hehehe.. :) and I miss my nose stud. Give El Marino a try!
31 Aug 2013
Mind over matter
The excruciating pain of being lied to, being rejected or failing something.
The beginning of my post is a little bit dramatic. This blog is the only place where I can be all emotional and overly dramatic you see. Clearly it has been almost three years I have this blog around. It shows the transition of my life time in a way. Probably I'll shut it down after I have my first child. Hmm..we'll see. It's good to have something written down, you have something to read back and have a laugh about. I do that sometimes. Read the stuff I wrote when I still had the mind of a child. A few years has passed nothing much has changed though with regards to my thinking. Oh well. That only means, I am being me.
My mind seems to wonder about unnecessary things. When does it not?
So much to say.
At this point lets have it unsaid.
Goodnight.
The beginning of my post is a little bit dramatic. This blog is the only place where I can be all emotional and overly dramatic you see. Clearly it has been almost three years I have this blog around. It shows the transition of my life time in a way. Probably I'll shut it down after I have my first child. Hmm..we'll see. It's good to have something written down, you have something to read back and have a laugh about. I do that sometimes. Read the stuff I wrote when I still had the mind of a child. A few years has passed nothing much has changed though with regards to my thinking. Oh well. That only means, I am being me.
My mind seems to wonder about unnecessary things. When does it not?
So much to say.
At this point lets have it unsaid.
Goodnight.
28 Jul 2013
Smile
This jittery feeling inside.
Makes me smile so wide.
Hey there dear friend,
You make me feel fine.
You make my world shine.
A fool this heart might be,
But the future no one can see,
Why not let loose and be free,
To a world of what might be.
If this is true I thank you,
If it isn't it'll be another lesson learnt,
For one might enter as a person of forever true
For one might enter as a person that will leave you.
I will not be scared to face my fears
As the worse thing that could happen is I'll shed more tears,
A girl should be nothing but her own worrior
Through ups and downs, betrayal and sorrows.
Dear you, your smile melts me. :)
Makes me smile so wide.
Hey there dear friend,
You make me feel fine.
You make my world shine.
A fool this heart might be,
But the future no one can see,
Why not let loose and be free,
To a world of what might be.
If this is true I thank you,
If it isn't it'll be another lesson learnt,
For one might enter as a person of forever true
For one might enter as a person that will leave you.
I will not be scared to face my fears
As the worse thing that could happen is I'll shed more tears,
A girl should be nothing but her own worrior
Through ups and downs, betrayal and sorrows.
Dear you, your smile melts me. :)
15 Jul 2013
Hopeful
Hello,
It is already Ramadhan. Time flies. SO Fast. We're coming to the second week of Ramadhan soon.
Things have been pretty ok. Loving the holidays. Did I mention I went KL two weeks ago? That was a good retail therapy. Got back home and did a REAL therapy. :) Two and the half hours of body scrub and body massage. It was good. Got myself another FOSSIL watch. I don't know what it is about me and watches. I had to get one. I love it though. I'm a free woman. I guess I can buy whatever I want.
I have been going through a weird thing lately. I have been having dreams about the same person, which I am not suppose to be dreaming about. Its just odd. This is happening probably because I have been thinking about the person when I am awake. Maybe?
Lets just hope I'll move past this. Soon.
It is already Ramadhan. Time flies. SO Fast. We're coming to the second week of Ramadhan soon.
Things have been pretty ok. Loving the holidays. Did I mention I went KL two weeks ago? That was a good retail therapy. Got back home and did a REAL therapy. :) Two and the half hours of body scrub and body massage. It was good. Got myself another FOSSIL watch. I don't know what it is about me and watches. I had to get one. I love it though. I'm a free woman. I guess I can buy whatever I want.
I have been going through a weird thing lately. I have been having dreams about the same person, which I am not suppose to be dreaming about. Its just odd. This is happening probably because I have been thinking about the person when I am awake. Maybe?
Lets just hope I'll move past this. Soon.
14 Jun 2013
Blue
I've been wondering about a lot of things lately. And thought of many things like quitting my job etc. I've been so tired lately. With work. I mean its great to be having a job and everything. But at some point you do get tired of it. And this is probably because I have been working hard since January. Yea I did go to Korea. But it was for a conference. So it doesn't count as a holiday. I got school and tuition as well to think about. I'm currently on my school break it feels like my work tripled actually. Like what I always tell my self GOD does not give you anything more than what you can handle as a human being. I need a holiday. Perhaps retail therapy.
But then again, if I do not get a retail therapy a conversation with a particular person would do.
I was saying on my last post I was going through a few things until recently the whole situation was made simple by nature per say. So it got me thinking.
I was in denial at some point. I think. Not too sure anymore. Perhaps confuse or caught between my past and my present.
I got to know a friend a year ago and we hit it off pretty well. Ever since we first met, I get this jittery feeling every time I see him or talk to him. In other words, he makes my heart race. We had a falling out in between and I did something not so smart. He doesn't know what I did and now I kinda think it was silly what I did. But I have stopped doing it now, so technically I am now in a way is a good person again.
The thing with this new friend is, he is not consistent. Sometimes he makes me wonder where his existence is. And its weird how deep inside I have this certain feeling that he is actually a nice guy. I don't know if my guts is making the right assumption right now.
I like the way he talks about his sick mom, I like how he is passionate about his work, I like how he is not sure of certain things. Most of all I like how he makes me feel everytime I'm around him. He doesn't make me feel like a princess or anything. He makes me nervous and everytime I talk to him I can't look at him straight in the eye cause he makes me shy. It sounds stupid and naive I know. But that's exactly how he makes me feel everytime I'm around him. Why am I only jotting this down now? It's probably because I've been doing alot of thinking lately. Cause right now I am kinda angry. I think. I'm not too sure what this feeling is. So I've been weighing out pros and cons of a certain situation.
Day by day I came to realize a few things. Sigh.
I have not spoken to this new friend in days. I kinda miss talking to him. If only I can say all these things to him, especially how he makes me feel everytime I'm around him and leave nothing on the table. That'll be nice. I think. What ever it is, or what ever he is up to I guess I wish him well. I mean, good things do not come easy right? I'm not expecting anything from him though. Have not been expecting anything from anyone in a really long time now.
I have not been this emotional here for quite some time. I guess today is just one of those days.
Tomorrow is work day for me. I reckon I should just take it one day at a time. Like I always do when life seem to be on the rough road.
I've asked a certain person questions like, how can you love two person at the same time? Now I know its possible. How can you say I love you to a certain person and the next day you go out with someone else? It is possible. How can you cheat? It is doable and there's a reason why a person does it. Now I know. Whatever it is, nothing beats doing things the right way. Not everyone appreciates that actually. And I'm glad I'm not one of those people.
Anyhoots. Gona go brush my teeth and head to bed now.
Toodles~ P/S I am not miserable. Just feeling a little blue. I'll get over it. Byee! :)
But then again, if I do not get a retail therapy a conversation with a particular person would do.
I was saying on my last post I was going through a few things until recently the whole situation was made simple by nature per say. So it got me thinking.
I was in denial at some point. I think. Not too sure anymore. Perhaps confuse or caught between my past and my present.
I got to know a friend a year ago and we hit it off pretty well. Ever since we first met, I get this jittery feeling every time I see him or talk to him. In other words, he makes my heart race. We had a falling out in between and I did something not so smart. He doesn't know what I did and now I kinda think it was silly what I did. But I have stopped doing it now, so technically I am now in a way is a good person again.
The thing with this new friend is, he is not consistent. Sometimes he makes me wonder where his existence is. And its weird how deep inside I have this certain feeling that he is actually a nice guy. I don't know if my guts is making the right assumption right now.
I like the way he talks about his sick mom, I like how he is passionate about his work, I like how he is not sure of certain things. Most of all I like how he makes me feel everytime I'm around him. He doesn't make me feel like a princess or anything. He makes me nervous and everytime I talk to him I can't look at him straight in the eye cause he makes me shy. It sounds stupid and naive I know. But that's exactly how he makes me feel everytime I'm around him. Why am I only jotting this down now? It's probably because I've been doing alot of thinking lately. Cause right now I am kinda angry. I think. I'm not too sure what this feeling is. So I've been weighing out pros and cons of a certain situation.
Day by day I came to realize a few things. Sigh.
I have not spoken to this new friend in days. I kinda miss talking to him. If only I can say all these things to him, especially how he makes me feel everytime I'm around him and leave nothing on the table. That'll be nice. I think. What ever it is, or what ever he is up to I guess I wish him well. I mean, good things do not come easy right? I'm not expecting anything from him though. Have not been expecting anything from anyone in a really long time now.
I have not been this emotional here for quite some time. I guess today is just one of those days.
Tomorrow is work day for me. I reckon I should just take it one day at a time. Like I always do when life seem to be on the rough road.
I've asked a certain person questions like, how can you love two person at the same time? Now I know its possible. How can you say I love you to a certain person and the next day you go out with someone else? It is possible. How can you cheat? It is doable and there's a reason why a person does it. Now I know. Whatever it is, nothing beats doing things the right way. Not everyone appreciates that actually. And I'm glad I'm not one of those people.
Anyhoots. Gona go brush my teeth and head to bed now.
Toodles~ P/S I am not miserable. Just feeling a little blue. I'll get over it. Byee! :)
11 Jun 2013
Little Talks
Truth be told, before this post i had three posts saved on draft. Why you may ask? Well, I didnt get to to finish writing them. The last time i posted something here seemed like I was pretty annoyed. I can still remember why actually.
I've finished my exams went to Korea for the ASPAC conference. Got my exam results. Not too shabby for a person that left school for almost two years and coming back to it part time.
And so here I am. Currently on my semester break. Working at normal working time and not forgetting acting on behalf of a collegue that is on wedding leave. I think I kinda over worked that I kinda fell sick. So I decided to call in sick today. Apart from work I volunteered to conduct a zumba session for the upcoming camp. Now I'm not too sure why I did that.
So as far as my usual fun filled career life is concern I am pretty much taking it one day at a time.
On a different note, these past few months I was caught in the middle of something. I wasn't too sure to why i was behaving in such a way. So recently I came to realize why. I'm still having mix feelings about the whole thing. It's weird how i have all these questions in my head and having all the answers at the same time as well. Things are now made simpler for me actually and i do not have to do anything that might end up hurting anyone. I guess that's good. I can't help feeling blue though. And I keep on asking myself why? Oh well. I'm sure it'll disappear soon.
On another different note, it's kinda freaky, but i can't wait to start a family and have my own kids. It's nice to see how some of the people i know are popping out babies. I might not be dating anyone right now, but I do believe it'll happen soon. I mean, having a family and what not.
Last but not least, I have a friend. And I miss our little talks.
I've finished my exams went to Korea for the ASPAC conference. Got my exam results. Not too shabby for a person that left school for almost two years and coming back to it part time.
And so here I am. Currently on my semester break. Working at normal working time and not forgetting acting on behalf of a collegue that is on wedding leave. I think I kinda over worked that I kinda fell sick. So I decided to call in sick today. Apart from work I volunteered to conduct a zumba session for the upcoming camp. Now I'm not too sure why I did that.
So as far as my usual fun filled career life is concern I am pretty much taking it one day at a time.
On a different note, these past few months I was caught in the middle of something. I wasn't too sure to why i was behaving in such a way. So recently I came to realize why. I'm still having mix feelings about the whole thing. It's weird how i have all these questions in my head and having all the answers at the same time as well. Things are now made simpler for me actually and i do not have to do anything that might end up hurting anyone. I guess that's good. I can't help feeling blue though. And I keep on asking myself why? Oh well. I'm sure it'll disappear soon.
On another different note, it's kinda freaky, but i can't wait to start a family and have my own kids. It's nice to see how some of the people i know are popping out babies. I might not be dating anyone right now, but I do believe it'll happen soon. I mean, having a family and what not.
Last but not least, I have a friend. And I miss our little talks.
12 Apr 2013
7 Apr 2013
With Love
As you can see I actually took the initiative to change the background design of my blog. As if I have all the free time in the world. And as of now I'm thinking of going to the saloon for a hair treatment. Should I? It has been awhile, since I've gone to the saloon. And I'm running out of shampoo. Need to get a set.
So should I go or should I not? I am kinda sleepy, prolly a nap would be a better choice. I was planning to send my lecturer my project's progress report. For whatever reason my brain feels exhausted. It prefers catering for nonsense like contemplating to go to the saloon.
I'm not going to write much again today. I think I should reserve all this thinking energy for better things.
Toodles.
So should I go or should I not? I am kinda sleepy, prolly a nap would be a better choice. I was planning to send my lecturer my project's progress report. For whatever reason my brain feels exhausted. It prefers catering for nonsense like contemplating to go to the saloon.
I'm not going to write much again today. I think I should reserve all this thinking energy for better things.
Toodles.
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| With Love, Yours Truly. |
6 Apr 2013
And so its April
So hello, here I am composing this post using our new desktop at home which I bought for my sister's 14th birthday. Or is it 15th birthday?
The monitor is flatter than my laptop and it runs on windows 8 and the keyboard is as soft as a fuffly sponge. Loving it much. Makes me wana do my work here. And the monitor is HD which makes watching a hd movie a whole new experience here.
I have the crossfit games website on. They finished off the crossfit open afew days ago doing the 13.5. Chest to bar and thrusters. Camille took the first place. She's now technically the fittest woman on the planet. Just today I watched the last match, very inspiring. It was sad how when I was watching the match I was feeding on AyamKu. All this work is making me eat like a pig. But not to worry, exam's coming. Hence, three months holiday will kick in soon. I can't wait. Gona go back to the gym and kill those clean and jerks again. Oh how I miss. Everyone has their favorite game in the gym. I love doing my legs. Leg day has got to be my favorite. For one thing, my legs are the strongest part of my body. My skinny arms bring me nothing but disappointments during weight lifting. And I love the feeling of having my pants fitting on nicely. And lots of leg training can enhance your running. That's what I experience though. I can run, if not faster but longer.
May please come faster.
Til then. I shall leave you here.
Goodnight.
The monitor is flatter than my laptop and it runs on windows 8 and the keyboard is as soft as a fuffly sponge. Loving it much. Makes me wana do my work here. And the monitor is HD which makes watching a hd movie a whole new experience here.
I have the crossfit games website on. They finished off the crossfit open afew days ago doing the 13.5. Chest to bar and thrusters. Camille took the first place. She's now technically the fittest woman on the planet. Just today I watched the last match, very inspiring. It was sad how when I was watching the match I was feeding on AyamKu. All this work is making me eat like a pig. But not to worry, exam's coming. Hence, three months holiday will kick in soon. I can't wait. Gona go back to the gym and kill those clean and jerks again. Oh how I miss. Everyone has their favorite game in the gym. I love doing my legs. Leg day has got to be my favorite. For one thing, my legs are the strongest part of my body. My skinny arms bring me nothing but disappointments during weight lifting. And I love the feeling of having my pants fitting on nicely. And lots of leg training can enhance your running. That's what I experience though. I can run, if not faster but longer.
May please come faster.
Til then. I shall leave you here.
Goodnight.
23 Mar 2013
Source of inspiration
Hello,
How is everyone doing?
I'm doing ok. Just today we received the deadline for our mini project. My heart skipped a beat when I saw my lecturer's mail. I am about 26 pages away from finishing. Plus two other assignments that needs to be done. I reckon I'll manage. Just today I saw a friend posting on her facebook saying that she managed to complete a 90 paged report within 24 hours. I have about a month plus. I should be able to do it right? Right?
I keep reminding myself that God does not give a person something more than what they can handle. I believe I should be able to complete this. One semester is almost done, three more to go. Everything will be done before I know it.
I'm gona go watch Big Bang Theory before going back to writing up assumptions on having geothermal energy in Brunei. And this is for inspiration. Hehe.
Til next time.
How is everyone doing?
I'm doing ok. Just today we received the deadline for our mini project. My heart skipped a beat when I saw my lecturer's mail. I am about 26 pages away from finishing. Plus two other assignments that needs to be done. I reckon I'll manage. Just today I saw a friend posting on her facebook saying that she managed to complete a 90 paged report within 24 hours. I have about a month plus. I should be able to do it right? Right?
I keep reminding myself that God does not give a person something more than what they can handle. I believe I should be able to complete this. One semester is almost done, three more to go. Everything will be done before I know it.
I'm gona go watch Big Bang Theory before going back to writing up assumptions on having geothermal energy in Brunei. And this is for inspiration. Hehe.
Til next time.
8 Mar 2013
Off day
Hello!
How is everyone doing? People around me are getting sick only God knows how hard I try not to be one of them. Not too sure if I'm succeeding there's just too much of them. Prolly I need to take my fish oil after this.
Anyhoots, its Friday morning and I am not working. It feels kinda odd. Woke up with a bad stomachache luckily it has dissipated in a way. Atleast I got time to do my project and prolly later an exercise or two for tonight's class.
There are days when I feel like I wana just give up and roll around on the floor cause it frustrates me when I can't do something. Especially with my mini project, 8 units mini project. Right! I don't think they know what the word mini stands for. I can do the project, not saying that I can't. I'm just facing a problem with the tool that I have to use. The tool called LEAP is suppose to give the forecast-ed value using the data that I have. And I seem to not know how to do that. I have an idea how, but it does not seem logically. I can write as much stuff as I can, but the graphs still count I suppose. I should ask for help from Emma.
I've been wondering, does it mean something when you've decided to leave a person he or she still comes back. They say, when someone comes back to you, the person is yours. I wonder if that's true.
Hmm..
How is everyone doing? People around me are getting sick only God knows how hard I try not to be one of them. Not too sure if I'm succeeding there's just too much of them. Prolly I need to take my fish oil after this.
Anyhoots, its Friday morning and I am not working. It feels kinda odd. Woke up with a bad stomachache luckily it has dissipated in a way. Atleast I got time to do my project and prolly later an exercise or two for tonight's class.
There are days when I feel like I wana just give up and roll around on the floor cause it frustrates me when I can't do something. Especially with my mini project, 8 units mini project. Right! I don't think they know what the word mini stands for. I can do the project, not saying that I can't. I'm just facing a problem with the tool that I have to use. The tool called LEAP is suppose to give the forecast-ed value using the data that I have. And I seem to not know how to do that. I have an idea how, but it does not seem logically. I can write as much stuff as I can, but the graphs still count I suppose. I should ask for help from Emma.
I've been wondering, does it mean something when you've decided to leave a person he or she still comes back. They say, when someone comes back to you, the person is yours. I wonder if that's true.
Hmm..
3 Mar 2013
One of those days
Hi..
The last time I was in here was in January.
It is safe to say that my schedule is tight. I have not been working out and I've been eating like crazy.
I am currently on a break from doing my 10 paged essay about geothermal energy. My god this stuff is boring. I was never the type that writes lengthy essays except when it comes to writing about yours truly. I'm on my 3rd page, hoping to get til the fifth page, I gotta have strong will power to achieve that, at this point I'm not too sure if I can.
There are days when I wana cry cause I have too much stuff that I need to do and that I don't know why I put myself in this. I suppose something good will come up. God is fair. HE knows what's best. I don't juggle well, not yet. SO I have no other choice but to take one day at a time.
Things have changed ever since the calendar entered the year 2013. Some are just odd. It makes me wonder what the end of the line is gonabe like. I'll share it with you once things are clearer and if I actually feel like it.
I am gona stop now. Can't write much. Gotta save time for the more important stuff. Like going for SEAFOOD. HEEHEE...and ofcourse add more stuff on my essay sheet.
Toodles.
The last time I was in here was in January.
It is safe to say that my schedule is tight. I have not been working out and I've been eating like crazy.
I am currently on a break from doing my 10 paged essay about geothermal energy. My god this stuff is boring. I was never the type that writes lengthy essays except when it comes to writing about yours truly. I'm on my 3rd page, hoping to get til the fifth page, I gotta have strong will power to achieve that, at this point I'm not too sure if I can.
There are days when I wana cry cause I have too much stuff that I need to do and that I don't know why I put myself in this. I suppose something good will come up. God is fair. HE knows what's best. I don't juggle well, not yet. SO I have no other choice but to take one day at a time.
Things have changed ever since the calendar entered the year 2013. Some are just odd. It makes me wonder what the end of the line is gonabe like. I'll share it with you once things are clearer and if I actually feel like it.
I am gona stop now. Can't write much. Gotta save time for the more important stuff. Like going for SEAFOOD. HEEHEE...and ofcourse add more stuff on my essay sheet.
Toodles.
26 Jan 2013
Standards
I have been disappointed with quite a number of people lately. Me inclusive.
My brother says I set too much standards on everything. I should be settling for alot less and I should be expecting alot lesser as well. On things and on human beings. I beg to differ. I believe that these standards define who you are and how you want to lead your life. And I believe that a person has a choice to improve themselves to pull themselves up to a certain standard? Am I not right?
I am not saying that I only want great good things in life. I still accept mistakes, failures and what not. Lets take a person as an example. Say a person makes a mistake, mistakes done by a person is actually the result of a person's bad judgement at that particular moment usually. I would accept these mistakes but I would expect the person to do something about it and not do the same shit all over again. It's just commonsense isn't it? Having certain standards help you to be cautious about certain things. Another example is, accepting a man in your life. To be saying I love you endlessly does not mean anything to me until I see actions. That's my standard. You don't just go around saying I love you and you need me and you cry over some other girl just because you feel like it. Well that's just a figure of speech. Do not quote me on that one.
I have standards because I do not want to end up being hurt or hurting anyone. I have standards because I want to deliver something outstanding not something being done half heartedly.
I was also told that I go for guys that has looks. That's not fully true though. The guys I like happened to be body builders..I DID NOT scout for bodybuilders. I wouldnt mind going for a guy that has a decent look as long as he's clean looking to my eyes. That's it. And every guy has a chance to look good as long as he knows how to take care of himself. You think all good looking guys are good looking because they are born that way? They work their ass off to look good. Watch their food, work out day and night. I don't know where I'm going with this one actually. But my point is I am not shallow when it comes to picking guys.
On another note, it was weird how I was day dreaming about having a baby. The only thing that's stalling me right now is the fact that I need a husband to have a baby. GAH! If only I can skip the whole dating and getting married process and just have a cute chubby baby that plays and sleeps with me. While I was day dreaming I was thinking of adopting a parentless baby. But then what if I accidentally adopted a devil baby.
My brother says I set too much standards on everything. I should be settling for alot less and I should be expecting alot lesser as well. On things and on human beings. I beg to differ. I believe that these standards define who you are and how you want to lead your life. And I believe that a person has a choice to improve themselves to pull themselves up to a certain standard? Am I not right?
I am not saying that I only want great good things in life. I still accept mistakes, failures and what not. Lets take a person as an example. Say a person makes a mistake, mistakes done by a person is actually the result of a person's bad judgement at that particular moment usually. I would accept these mistakes but I would expect the person to do something about it and not do the same shit all over again. It's just commonsense isn't it? Having certain standards help you to be cautious about certain things. Another example is, accepting a man in your life. To be saying I love you endlessly does not mean anything to me until I see actions. That's my standard. You don't just go around saying I love you and you need me and you cry over some other girl just because you feel like it. Well that's just a figure of speech. Do not quote me on that one.
I have standards because I do not want to end up being hurt or hurting anyone. I have standards because I want to deliver something outstanding not something being done half heartedly.
I was also told that I go for guys that has looks. That's not fully true though. The guys I like happened to be body builders..I DID NOT scout for bodybuilders. I wouldnt mind going for a guy that has a decent look as long as he's clean looking to my eyes. That's it. And every guy has a chance to look good as long as he knows how to take care of himself. You think all good looking guys are good looking because they are born that way? They work their ass off to look good. Watch their food, work out day and night. I don't know where I'm going with this one actually. But my point is I am not shallow when it comes to picking guys.
On another note, it was weird how I was day dreaming about having a baby. The only thing that's stalling me right now is the fact that I need a husband to have a baby. GAH! If only I can skip the whole dating and getting married process and just have a cute chubby baby that plays and sleeps with me. While I was day dreaming I was thinking of adopting a parentless baby. But then what if I accidentally adopted a devil baby.
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| Chubby Baby |
19 Jan 2013
YOLO
Hello and Happy New Year Everybodeh!
I'm 19 days late, I suppose it's fine. No one cares.
I am currently at work, the brain refuse to produce anything good for the time being, so I figured maybe I should write something.
I was just working on the new website for the company. Bleghh I should say. I'm loving the whole marketing thing it's just that it takes awhile to get completed. And you can sit for 4 hours and you are not even close to being half way done.
The boss asked to use this website generator called WEEBLY. It's super easy and I think I've fallen in love with it. It does give me some sort of annoyance once in awhile though. If you actually have your fingers on it you'll get what I mean. Not forgetting photoshop. I have to get myself familiar with photoshop. My goodness, it is not a simple software. It is if you know how to use it I suppose. It has so many tools that I think you need years to master.
The down side of being in this department is, apart from having to be good at photoshop is the sitting down for hours and just staring at your computer. It gives a really bad back pain. I am having one now. :(
And oh yes, I have started with classes. I can say I am intimidated to the bones. And I will still be teaching. Not too sure how I'll do, kinda have to just suck it!
So I'll be juggling work, school, tuition and gym. Yeappyyy..
Well.. YOLO.
I'm 19 days late, I suppose it's fine. No one cares.
I am currently at work, the brain refuse to produce anything good for the time being, so I figured maybe I should write something.
I was just working on the new website for the company. Bleghh I should say. I'm loving the whole marketing thing it's just that it takes awhile to get completed. And you can sit for 4 hours and you are not even close to being half way done.
The boss asked to use this website generator called WEEBLY. It's super easy and I think I've fallen in love with it. It does give me some sort of annoyance once in awhile though. If you actually have your fingers on it you'll get what I mean. Not forgetting photoshop. I have to get myself familiar with photoshop. My goodness, it is not a simple software. It is if you know how to use it I suppose. It has so many tools that I think you need years to master.
The down side of being in this department is, apart from having to be good at photoshop is the sitting down for hours and just staring at your computer. It gives a really bad back pain. I am having one now. :(
And oh yes, I have started with classes. I can say I am intimidated to the bones. And I will still be teaching. Not too sure how I'll do, kinda have to just suck it!
So I'll be juggling work, school, tuition and gym. Yeappyyy..
Well.. YOLO.
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