Smiley Face

It's christmas day today. I had a good day of sleeping and resting. Probably I'm gona go back to working on my brochure for the work place. We'll see.

Now that I am the marketing coordinator I have been working on things like updating the facebook, the website, doing the press release and I reckon alot more. Since 2013 is just days away there will be alot to cover. Well, provided the other department has something for me publicized about. Now that I write stuff to promote the company I have to improve my english interms of writing and speaking. I can write or speak proper english but then again there's always room for improvements.

I received a good news few days ago. I applied for master about 6 months ago and just recently I have received an offer letter form the university. My course starts January next year and I have nothing prepared. Since I will be doing it part time I have to arrange my work schedule and classes and as of now I have no idea how that is gona turn out. I blame the uni for not coming back to me soon enough regarding my application. I had to go up and down the uni just to check with them about my application. This is exactly what I am afraid of. I am restricted to just days to get things sorted out and I do not look forward to driving up and down bandar to just to have things clarified. Because I know the people that I will be liaising will not give me the exact answer just like that. How do I know this? That's because that's what I experienced with my application and when I asked about if I can do the course that I applied for part-time.

But whatever it is, I shall work for it and get things sorted out no matter what it takes.

I can't really imagine how things are gonabe like, to be working and studying at the same time. If I really think about it, kinda suicidal. But I've worked two jobs before, so it should be fine right? Truth be told I am quite nervous about the whole thing. But then again I kinda have to grow some balls and face it.It would be a lie if I say I'm not excited at all, I am though, very!

My good girlfriend is getting married soon. SO happy for her. And the other friend that just got married recently is now expecting a baby. So nice. We all have something to look forward to next year and I am very excited for everybody. May 2013 bring us prosperity and joy all year round. Insha allah.

I had so much more to share, but I can't seem to recall what they are.

Oh yes, I know how to kip now. Do hundred skips without feeling sucky afterwards and I can do the monkey bar!! AND, I went for my first kickboxing class last week and it was super awesome!! Loved it! I feel alot stronger now though I have not been watching my food as much, which is not good, will definitely work on that.

I can say my 2012 has thought me alot. I had my ups and downs,  that's life for you right. Will end this post with some pictures just to show you how giddy I am inside. Tee hee..

For once I am happy and it's not because of a GUY. Interesting.

First ARTWORK by yours truly. I cheated a little though, Hehe

That is all for tonight I guess. Night night all.

I did it

Hello Dear Readers,

How u doin?

It has been a good week for me. Did Let's Extreme, which means I traveled the whole four district in 2 days confined. Managed to run my camp that I chaired. Brought the campers to Pusat Insani and HPC and it was great. And just tonight I found out that there is green apple jelly again! Woot!

It was a tiring week but I had lots of fun. Gotta go back to reality though. Oh the only sad thing that happened is, my phone broke down, now I'm trying to figure out where to send to have it fixed.
Oh and SUPA SAVE is opened. I'm loving it! I can get Dr Pepper anytime I want now and there wouldn't be any 15% mark ups. Lovve it!

I have a feeling that it's gonabe a short post for tonight. I am already kinda sleepy.

I have a big plan coming ahead. Hopefully I'm making the right choice. I'm really terrified that is all I can say.

So Yeah. Nite nite.

So Random

Well hello, It's TGIF for me and suddenly I have the urge to blog using my IPAD. Weird how I have this thing for almost two years now and it is still as empty as a broken a hearted man. Weird comparison, but hey, it's fun like that.

We had about an hour or so left at work today. It was just me, haz and izi (not their real names, cause I figured for today's post I shouldn't be mentioning real names. Why? You'll find out soon)at the office. I donot know how and why, we ended up talking about guys and relationships. Let me just give a brief introduction about Haz. Haz is a lady which is currently dating a lady and Izi recently just broke up with her 2 years long boyfriend. Haz has a steady girlfriend and Izi is currently playin' the field.

So Haz was saying when you date a guy you shouldn't be showing it too much. Cause when the dude knows that you are soo stupidly in love with him he has this idea that he can just do anything that he wants and he can still get away with it. It's kinda like he has this idea that he owns you. I reckon she was talking at a guy's perspective. Since she is kinda man-ish, probably she was referring to herself. I really agree with her though.

I've seen people like that and months after that the relationship goes down the drain. I love you baby muah muah..like EVERY SINGLE DAY!! Send tiny hearts and all that crap. Tau tau your boyfriend is banging another girl on the other side of his facebook wall. I have to admit, I was once like that. Not proud of it, literally! I wish I could turn back time and give myself a slap on the head for every MUSHY thing that I did on public display. And I actually learned (the hard way) that it shouldn't be like that. Atleast not in public. Not saying that you can't do it at ALL, you CAN, just not to an extend your man would find you repulsive instead.

If you really think about it, it's hard to get a man's attention. Some girls have it easy, I don't know how they did it. So far the guys that I have come across they are as complicated as hell. When I say attention, I mean a proper attention. If you flash them your boobs ofcourse you can definately get their attention, but that's not the kind of attention that I'm talking about here. Oh well. Only some people are worth working for right? You want it, then you're gona have to work for it.

That's all I have to say for today. It' the weekend and I'm looovin' it!
Can I just be random. Oh wait, this is my blog, I can be anything I want here!

The things you say make me smile. Does that mean I really like you?

Oh by the way, remember the ASPAC story that I was tellng you about. I was told today that I'm gona be swicted to another department like literally!!! My goodness, my boss needs to make up his mind. I am still gonabe handling the ASPAC and because of that he is literally putting me in Marketing and Public Relation! I better start brushing up on my photoshop skills and essay writings. Ohh dear.. What have I put myself into.

It's a little bit funny

It's funny how a minute ago I was eager to blog about stuff. Now that I am here infront of my laptop I seem to be lost for words.

Quite a number of things have happened. Some just makes me smile so wide and bright. Some are just nasty.

Let's Extreme is just next week! I'm so looking forward for it now. Have not stopped working out just for this event. Which I think is a good thing. Got my thighs and glutes  tightened up and an increase in stamina I reckon. Better looking Bum too I think. Hehehe. I have to admit I am guilty of working on too much on my legs. Need to increase my upper body strength perhaps by 40 per cent. If I really put my mind into it, I think I can do the monkey bars and the normal manual dips. Will give it a try soon enough.

Received quite a good news at work today. As of December 1st, I shall no longer be sitting on my current position. Just for the time being. Mr Boss have moved me to a project based assignment. Good thing about this move is, I will no longer be handling things like camp, traffic game, theme exhibition and the other stuff. I will be running the ASPAC project full time until it ends.

Let me just give you a brief information on what the ASPAC is all about. ASPAC is short for Asia Pacific Network of Science & Technology Centres. Each year an ASPAC conference will be conducted whereby all science centres from all over the world, whom are ASPAC members, will gather together and discuss about things like their developments, studies, exhibitions, etc etc. There will be seminars, workshops, activities, visits and even science shows conducted. This year the conference was held in Singapore, next year it'll be in Korea and Brunei will be hosting the conference in 2014. Now that I am the project manager I suppose I have to get working. It's kinda a big thing compared to what I have done previously. I suppose if I really put my mind into it, I'll manage. One of the few things that I do not look forward to are the meetings that we need to do with the stakeholders. Ahh well.. nothing comes easy.

So that's pretty much about work. Oh by the way I got employee of the month award for the month of October. Yeay me! Heheh..

On a different note,

Random facts coming along here so bare with me.

At one point or another you will realize different characters of a person. A person you never thought you can be comfortable with, you actually find it easy to be around him or her. When you actually thought having your partner there 24/7 on your ass brings absolute joy is actually not true. Well, it's just not as fun as you think it is. I came to realize a few things and I have to say, some of my "habits", I need to change them. Cause some of them are just not cool. Yeaappss.

I got myself a gold bracelet. Loving it! First gold purchase using my own money. Feels really good.

It feels good to be spending your own money that you earned by your own two hands.

Probably that is all for tonight. My jabber jabs are beginning to sound unnecessary.


Cherio Eberybadehh!

P/S: Some pictures from the launching that we had!

So FUN!

Aloha!

Goody Goody That I've Become

My First Science Show With My Science Communicators!

Hyped and Energized

Hello,

It is the last day of our short 3 days holiday. It's about 5pm and I haven't even showered. Hehe. It's good to be lazy sometimes. There are days when you have to keep your mind on idle mode. It helps you get ready for the next week's hurdles.

The holiday has been good. Went to Miri to get some durians, which I have been craving for, for weeks and managed to hit the gym yesterday and hung out with some friends. Meanwhile, my mail is flooded with mails which I reckon I have to entertain by next week. Work can wait. I'm having a great time being a lazy bum today. I was contemplating to go to the gym again today to do some arms training. If I workout today I might just not be able to do my circuit efficiently tomorrow. So I decided to save it for tomorrow. I look forward to the Monday circuits now, which I am myself surprised. Ever since the new guys entered the work place I'm hyped with keeping fit and what-not. Which is a good thing. It has been awhile. I like the drive that they have especially Hazel, she makes me wana work out everyday. She does Muay Thai, which I think is really cool. Each and everyone of us have our own goal, this includes Steph. We were lazy bums and we would work out only like ones a month, so sucks, really. But now we are trying to make it as consistent as possible, by going back to circuit and have our own HLP every Wednesday. It has been good, on top of the sessions mentioned, I've been going to the gym just to refresh back what I was thought before. I did forget some of the routines but I reckon if I keep on doing it I'll get the hang of it.

AND, not only that just today I have enrolled myself for the TelBru's Lets Extreme. Yeap we have these things in Brunei and I'll be doing it with Steph. I'm very excited about it. There will be a fitness test prior to the competition, it'll suck if we fail though. Hence, the strength training. It'll be nice if I can pair up with a dude. Non of my guy friends are up for it. It is either they are not interested, they'll be going on a vacation or they have to work. Oh well, nevermind, I'm gona just do it for fun and there are days when I actually wonder if Steph is actually a guy in a girl's body. So it's fine.

I have been watching my food these days. I've asked around and have been reading some stuff from the net about gaining weight and toning up the right way. It all boils down to eating clean. So I've been cutting down on the oil, sugar and salt. Feeding on tubers, carbs and protein. I'm not too sure how long I can stand having just salmon head with steam rice or chicken with steam rice every lunch time, I guess I just have to do it as long as I have to. No guts no glory I keep on telling myself.
I was quite active sometime ago, but never really watched my food. So I would still have flabs on certain areas of my body, like my tummy and my arms. I was told to watch my food but I didn't listen, but now it got me thinking. Working out 3 -4 times a week is tiring and you do not wana put all that effort to waste right?

I got new gears last night. Heheh. A motivation to work out even harder. Yippee. So semangat. Hopefully this will last. Seriously. I can be a super lazy ass sometime. Very Sucky at the same time.

I came across a website and I think it's quite neat.

http://www.muscleandfitness.com/

In case some of you are trying to start doing weight trainings on your own,  I suggest it's good to know a few things before hand. I wana get a girl trainer, I find it awkward to have a guy teaching me weight lifting especially if I don't know the person that well. Most of my lady friends, NON i mean, non of them does proper weight lifting. Hmm..so sad. Forever alone.

A guy friend owns a gym, been going there lately. But then again, it's hard to get hold of him even to just have coffee, let alone have him to TRAIN me. I reckon I would still be embarrassed though if I were to have him teaching me. Hehehe. Oh well. Nevermind, I was thought how to do this before so I'm sure with enough revision I'll manage.

I did legs training yesterday with the sister. My sister is strong! She's actually stronger than I am, than most girls I know. Gila kaliee. She made me feel a little bit intimidated for a second there.  I think this is because she has bigger build than I do. She can do 40kgs weighted deep squats as easy as 8 reps effortlessly. I had to really put my mind into it until my face turned red. Impressive I may say. Proud of her.

I'm thinking of getting some supplements to enhance muscle growth. Been reading some stuff online and getting different opinions from friends and family and truth be told I got confused with all the information given. I'm thinking of getting a BCAA (Branched Chain Amino Acid) but with my training intensity I'm not too sure if I should. I might just not need it. And if I actually do, which one? If you didn't know there are actually alot of them, from different brands and they come in different forms. I think I need to do more reading. Maybe I'll get one after I have finished my super pump. Never thought I would actually finish it. Heheh.

Might be doing some hiking next week. I can't wait. It has been awhile since I went for one. I'm loving the energy that the girls have at the office. I'm no longer a sloth. Yeay. Today will be my 7th day of healthy eating. Cheat day was on Friday, I had lots and lots of durian. So yummy. And Mc Donalds, my gosh so fatty. But it was good. The guilt was there, but it was good. I'm gona give myself til end of December, lets just see if something good will come out of this. Maybe bigger toned arms, oh how I wish. Flatter tummy, bigger sexy legs, I want very many. Who knows, maybe 8 reps of pull ups non stop. Teehee.

I had my legs measured today and my waist. I am now 21 cm on the thighs (bigger than mom's, yeay) and 27 cm on my waist. I was ever 19 on my thighs and 25 on my waist, I was scrawny. So gross so ugly. My weight was like 45kg? People started thinking I was an anorexic. Not gona go there again. Ever. I have learned to appreciate ideal weight range and that strong is the new skinny. :)

So I guess that's that. I think I've poured more than a handful of information about keeping fit. Probably some pictures to get you more hyped and happening about keeping fit just like we all are. At the moment.

Til then, adios.

Treat others the way you wanabe treated

Good evening folks!

How is everybody doing?

I have been utilizing my days to its fullest. Pretty hectic I may say, but manageable. Installation of exhibition is done and I'm impressed with how it turned out to be. I've gone back to doing circuits. It's awesome as usual. I think I've gained some weight too. Which is a good thing, I think.  Been binging these past few days. I reckon I'm gona have my period soon.

I have this aim of trying to gain some pounds. I was told to eat like crazy and after I have reached a certain weight I have to tone myself up. Currently working on it. Sigh. Nothing comes easy. Gona enroll myself for Muay Thai classes soon. I hope. Can't wait.

I paid a visit to a lady friend. And when I say friend, it's not like me and my friend friend, it's a different friend. I promised to pay her a visit sometime ago and just today I actually managed to go and see her. I miss her cooking. She's a really good cook. We sorta had a lunch date at her place today and it was actually good to be able to eat her cooking again after a really long time. She made me like 6 different dishes. Yeap! SIX! Even my mom doesn't cook as much for me and my siblings. She was anticipating my presence and I thought it was really sweet. How do I know this? Cause the table was properly set when I arrived. I was a little bit touched. :)

We had a good chat. On top of the good lunch she made me chocolate cake. I've always liked her chocolate mud cake and she actually took her time to make one just for me to 'tapau' home. :') Sweet lady she is. AND... when I was just about to leave, she showed me her orchids and out of the blue she plugged some of the orchids and gave them to me. I have it hanging up side down at my dresser right now. I guess all that's left to do now is wait for it to turn into potpourri. Hehe.

After what happened, she still treats me the way she treated me before. I'm quite happy that things didn't change between me and her. I'll prolly pay her a visit again someday.

Nyum

Well, Hello Baby Alai. Long Time No See.

I wana have tummy like this and a belly button ring. Perhaps someday.

PS: Hmm.. I think I missy miss.

 I wonder if I'll ever see you again.

Everybody Leaves

I'm feeling abit out of place these past few days. Dysfunctional I may say. Not to mention over the top pessimistic. The more I wana get rid of my what-if's virus the more "what-ifs" I get. Just today three different people said I'm being pessimistic.

I reckon I've been let down too many times, hence the negativity.

I have quite a number of things running through my head. There are things that do not go my way and it bothers me. I wana question why. But then again the good side of me keeps on saying that God is testing me and he has better plans. And when something doesn't turn out the way you want it to be, it basically means one thing, find other ways to do it or try harder.

I managed to successfully bring in the new exhibition. Again from Australia, way ahead of schedule. I reckon I would be a good project engineer. I have my science communicators now. That means I have 5 permanent staff under me. And mind you, these people are Degree Graduates! You see, I like having the degree graduates to work with. So far they are enthusiastic, knowledgeable and efficient. The problem currently is, I'm a fresh graduate myself. My degree certificate is only 2 years old. So I'm still not quite comfortable with bossing them around. Well, I do not really boss people around. I think. You get what I mean. Still trying to compose myself everytime I call them for a meeting. I know what I want. As a leader you should always know what you want. So two things I have to look into here. One is the development of the workplace. Two is the development of my staff. And I am currently trying to develop myself too and sad to say,  I kinda have to do it on my own. There are other couple of things that I wana do. For instance develop new educational programs, new games, get new puzzles but there are times when I think, OMG am I raising the stake too high? Cause I might just fall head first and die. Negativity. You see what I mean? Although, deep in my heart, I know I can do it as long as I work for it. Usaha Tangga Kejayaan my friend says.

New exhibition means another launching ceremony. I've managed to delegate the work to the new staff. Hopefully everything will fall into place efficiently. And everything would go the way I want it to be. Heheh. Currently I'm the acting head, so I make any decision that I want, if only it's like that all the way. Oh well.

On top of that I need to conduct a workshop for them on how to do a proper science show. Oh my dear Lord, how this?? It's not a must. But I figured I should. Cause the whole point of going for the KL trip was this and it would be super selfish of me if I do not pass on the knowledge. It would be a good development for them as well.

I think I've been blabbing too much about work.I reckon I should stop.

Other than work, there's another thing that's bothering me. Its about my Master application. Apparently, they have not process the in service's applications and I have no idea why.So I'm currently waiting for the result. I do not like waiting especially this type of wait. It makes me lose focus hence I keep on messing things up for example I forget things easily. My brother gave me a lecture of about getting myself ready for the whole thing. Going back to school and what not. I told him that I do not wana do that cause I don't wana go through the trouble of getting myself excited but in the end I get a solid rejection on the face by a paper. If I do get it, it would be a good self development process. I suppose there's nothing much I can do but wait.

I'll be having alot of things to look forward to these coming few weeks. The o-levels is just around the corner.Have to give the kids extra work.That's another thing that I need to really put my mind into.

Come to think of it, I am utilizing my life to it's fullest. Not bad ey. I do wana become a better person. I guess I'm going towards the right direction. There might be some hiccups here and there. But that is just how life is, yes?

My eyes are getting kinda heavy. I need to turn in soon. It's my day off tomorrow, however I need to be up early. My car is done, will be picking it up tomorrow. Happy Me. I miss it alot.

Last words for tonight.

I kinda miss you. It's weird but it's true.Oh well. All the best to you. Hmm..too bad I can't say this to you.

Everybody Leaves. It's an ugly truth. Face it.

Good night everyone.

Series of unfortunate events

Once again, hello my dear readers.

I have to be honest with you, I haven't been blogging much lately.

From the last time I blogged here to today I can say I have an array of things that happened that really made my mind go topsy turvy.

Last two weeks we conducted an assessment for our new science communicators, I had a boat ride to Temburong and just afew days ago I went to KL for a science communicator workshop. Finally, I get to go into Petrosains. It was fun. The workshop was good. Too bad prior to the trip as well as in the midst of the trip I had a taste of a series of unfortunate events.

Since the trip was just me and my boss I decided to bring a friend to accompany me to go for the trip. Thinking that it would be good for us to spend some time together since it's really hard to get hold of him sometimes. Initially I  had trouble purchasing the ticket. Oh yea, I offered to purchase his air ticket since I was the one that invited him for the trip. Eventually I managed to sort the ticket problem and successfully got him a return ticket to Kuala Lumpur. Along the way of the purchasing process we kinda fought a bit. And he decided not to come along.  Regardless of what he said I got the tickets for him anyway. Come on, no matter how mad a person is if someone gives you a free air ticket you would cool down right?Right??Nope. Not this dude. He totally turned down the offer and didn't get on the plane. Uhuh. B$345 down the drain.

I went to KL anyway, just me and my boss. I was sad at first but I got over it. Shit happens whatcha gona do right? To enhance my over stressed mind, on the second day of the workshop I fell sick. I got like the fever FEVER. The one where all you can do is just lie down and sleep. Yeap. That happened. Luckily I managed to go for the first day of the workshop. Since it was a two day thing I didn't miss so much. On top of everything, on the last day of my KL trip another thing happened. Me and my boss were already at the KLIA to check-in our things to go back to Brunei. AND BAM! I left my passport at the hotel. And mind you, it takes about 45mins to an hour to drive back to the hotel from the airport. I could feel my heart dropped to the ground when I realized that I left my passport at the hotel. It was already 3pm and our flight was at 5.50pm. I didn't have any choice but to go back to the hotel and to make things worse the queue for the budget taxi was super long. No chance I would have made it. So I had to get a Merceadez. And it was a freakin RM200, just to get me back to the hotel. Since I didn't wana stay another day in KL I took the Merceadez and had to add another RM150 to have me driven back from the hotel to KLIA. SIGH! I literally spent about B$500 on nothing. Very sad.

Oh, as a cherry on top, my car is in the workshop again. It wouldn't be ready til like the middle of next month? SIGH!

All I can say is, I'm disappointed with my friend, I'm disappointed my car and I'm disappointed with myself.

I haven't spoken to my friend since til today. SIGH. Very mean. If only I can punch him. 

Learn to appreciate

Hello and good evening.

I had alot going on inside my head that I thought of jotting down before I switched on my laptop. But now it seem like it's going away.

One of the many things that I was thinking about was about the fact that not everyone is born rich or should I say with money. There are people that are born less fortunate. It amazes me how these people are still able to draw a smile on their faces though there are days when they do not even have food to eat for two three days. And here we are sometime thinking that we are broke cause we can't afford to buy a channel hand bag or a luxurious car though we are earning thousands of dollars a month. I think it's sad of how some people failed to appreciate the things they already have. Me inclusive. It's an odd world we live in. I wish I could help all the less fortunate families available here and adopt all the babies given away by messed up couples. But then again, come to think of it I am not the Sultan. So I can't really do much and I don't really have the money. It would be good if I can though. *Sigh*

I am already so sleepy. I'm gona stop here for tonight.

Have a good sleep you.

Baby got back

Hello Dear Readers,

It is a Sunday and I am on duty. *Yawns*

Why do I decided to blog again on a Sunday working day? Because I'm pretty much brain dead. I got presentation slides to do for the upcoming recruitment briefing and some other stuff to do which my brain is too tired to even recall right now.

I reckon I'm sleep deprived as well. I had my open house solely for my friends last night and the guys kinda stayed until about 2am. It was fun though. Haven't been hanging out with the guys in awhile.

Here's a funny story. You know how my lady friends are getting married and what not. So I can say now, getting engaged and getting married are all the things that I have been hearing lately from my lady friends. I thought maybe because they are girls and they are at this age that is why all that talk about is THAT. I figured my guy friends wouldn't be thinking about anything like that now, or maybe ever. Well, as usual I have my assumptions wrong. They do think about it. They do talk about it and they are worried about it. Interesting I may say. Probably its already THAT time. Revolution is taking it's place and we are a part of the integration.

I think it's good that they are trying to get themselves settled. I suppose it's about time. No one is getting any younger.

One of my guy friend said "Baik tah berakal berakal, mun tunggu lama lama bukan pulang makin baik. Makin rusak ada pulang."

I was really impressed with what he said. Never thought something like that would come out of his mouth. Heheh. Another friend said, " Nina, we are at the end of the cliff." He kinda used the wrong metaphor. But I understood what he was trying to say. Hopefully he'll find the right girl who'll manage to make him settle down like an old dog. Heheh.


Funny how things changed.


It's almost 11. Probably I should try doing my slides again. Force things out of this brain.


Last but not least.


I like you smiling smiling Hearts.

Hello My Dear

Hello My Dear Readers,

It is now the 7th day of Hari Raya. Haven't been doing that much visiting. It has been a good raya though. Cousins and friends have been coming over, get to see the little nephews and nieces. I like very many.

Something old but new is, my car is back in the workshop. *Sigh* For a different reason now. Somewhat. Hopefully I can get it back by next week.

Will be jotting down a very short post today, cause the mind is abit dysfunctional.

Last but not least...

U make me smile like a flippin butterfly..u make me shy like a girl on sugar high.

Til then have a good week up ahead.

Tying the knot

It's weird how I have the Song "Fighter" by the Gym Class Heroes stuck in my head right now and it isn't even the last song that I heard today.

It's less than an hour to 12 am suddenly I have the urge to blog. I received a very delighting news about a friend yesterday. I can say, two of my very good friends that I went to the university with will be tying the knot! I am genuinely happy for them. They have found their true love and they are planning to show it to the whole world not through the main stream way of just displaying it on facebook or any sort of social networks but by having a legitimate tie that not all mature couples seem to be able to do.

One lady will be having her wedding just next month and the other will be having hers early January 2013.

These two ladies went through a lot the last time I remember when they were in a relationship. Tears were shed, sorrows were shared between ourselves and what's amazing is they never stopped believing in having that one man that would always be true to them and now here they are planning out their weddings, picking out the best tiaras and the best glittering shoes that would match their dresses. Ahh..so nice.

Now that leaves me here wondering when will it be my turn? The pressure is not really there, cause my mum is not the type that is over the top concern about these things and to her I am still her 16 year old kid. True fact, I'm already 26 for crying out loud. And to add to that fact, I haven't found the right guy yet. * as of today, I don't think I have* But I do believe that I shall have the knot tied sometime next year. *Believe to achieve*

The past six years have thought me a very thoughtful lesson and seeing my friends have showed me the correct way of being in a relationship. It all boils down to believing. When I was with the last guy, which by the way was a pretty much serious four years relationship, I realize I never did believe that he was actually the one, I just THOUGHT he was the one. It seem a lot like it was the real deal that I forgot to believe that it was actually the real deal. But it wasn't. There were too much hope and expectations, which I have failed to realized, was not standing on solid foundations. I guess I was just young and naive. Probably in a way, too confident with myself. And I remember pouring too much love, more than I should have. Gosh, now that I am sane, I just realize all the wrong ingredients were put in the relationship. No wonder it didn't work. Well all of those things are behind me now. What I have learned from my friends are to just be moderate when it comes to these things. To believe that the guy is the right guy and not just think that he is. Probably not to expect too much from him as well, cause one thing he's not God.

Everyone will find their other half as long as you keep on believing that you can. That's what I believe.

That is all I reckon.

To the ladies,

Congratulations! For..

Full on determination

Things I wana do after puasa:

It's a must that I do all the things that I'm about to mention. The reasons are as follows:

1. Since it's the fasting month, I think I have lost the weight that I gained afew weeks ago.
2. I seriously do not feel fit anymore.
3. I have forgotten some of my gym routines that I was thought.
4. I don't think I can do a 10k run anymore.
5. I've lost the muscles on my thighs.
6. It's just so fuckin sad.

You just can't imagine how disappointed I am with myself as I typed those things above.

People in the GFCF are getting much much better. Especially those that goes training in Bandar at the box. *Sigh big big

One of the trainers have been training the princesses. They have their one to one personal trainings 6 times a week and after a week of training they can already do pull ups. Impressive ey. That's what I call full on determination. Truth be told til now I still can't do one. Shit, this is just sad. Seriously.

Going back to the first thing that I mentioned. The list of things I need to look into after the puasa month:

1. Go back to the gym
2. Attend circuits
3. Go running
4. Enroll myself in the Muai Tai classes
5. Start joining marathons again
6. And ofcourse get myself new running/exercise shoes (as I have lost mine. See how bad it has been. Ahh.. freakin' hell)

 Please excuse my French. I'm just too disappointed with myself.

You shall be my inspiration!

Wish me luck everybody.

As of today this is how skinny I am.

 P/S: Rambut saja almost sama as Camille. Heheh

Below is a random picture of me and afew other anti-social people. Heheh.

Sigh. Til then. Have a good last nine days of Ramadhan everybody. Hari raya is just around the corner. Good food is on it's way. Oh Dear.

Turn over a new leaf

So here is the thing, sometimes it takes a few slaps on the face for one to realize that he or she is on the wrong side of the road. Consequences of being on the wrong side of the road are as follows:

1. You might hurt yourself
2. You might hurt others
3. You might just die

I was on the wrong side of the road. But today I have certainly realized that I do not wanabe on the wrong side of the road anymore. I've made a mistake of almost going back there and I didn't feel good. I was overwhelmed with guilt that I have not felt since I was a kid. Not too sure what about. But yes it was awful.

A person is always, I mean ALWAYS given a choice. Personally, I think God will never put us in a situation whereby an option is what we only have. Well most of the time, it is never like that. A person would always be given the chance to choose between doing things right and doing things wrong. I, as much as I can, wana do things right. Always be on the right side of the road, to always know what I want, what I need and to know what I don't need.

I am finally turning over a new leaf. I am excited and I am terrified at the same time. It's a weird profound feeling that brings a smile on my face and a couple of frowns as well. But yet, all in all it is still good.

I believe I have made the correct choice. If this new leaf doesn't turn out so good I can always turn over a new page.

*Tee hee

Flippin' Butterfly

Hello,

Being at work on a Sunday today gave me the urge to blog a little bit.

My favorite staff is leaving to pursue her degree. I can't really stop her. I want to but that would be very selfish of me. She did say it's hard for her as well. Another staff of ours is making a mess out of this place. He is kinda 'Special' so I can't really say much cause I know he means well. I have a project coming up. I can say I am quite nervous about it. *When was I never when it comes to these things.

I think this is the first time in Ramadhan I am posting something here. Ramadhan has been very gentle with me. Alhamdulilah. I am surprise that I am very active this year regardless of being hungry and sleepy.Hmm interesting. There's always something that I wana do. I might be conducting an extra class for my students later. Where is all this energy coming from? I am not too sure myself. Can't really say that I do not feel tired working extra time during this fasting month. But I kinda just want to.

In response to my previous post, some questions were answered. Tee hee..

Here's what I have to say:

U make me smile like a flippin butterfly..u make me shy like a girl on sugar high. 

Cheers Mademoiselle
 

Believe to achieve

So,

Here is the thing. I am in quite of a situation. I'm not too sure if it's a situation, probably I'm just making a big deal out of it. But I somehow keep on thinking about it everyday. If only everything is self explanatory. It saves me the trouble of trying to figure things out myself, probably saves me the trouble of making a fool out of myself as well. Which by the way, I personally think I can get an award for making a fool out of myself. There are times when I think I am the queen of fools. Oh well.

I can't really say what exactly I am going through here. Cause it would be very odd. I am not so much the type that kiss and tell. I think. I do tell at one point or another, to my bestie. When everything has reached a point where it needs to be spilled.

What do I want now? What am I gona do now?

I want answers or signs or something anything. I wana know whats going on. Cause as it stands I'm feeling kinda hopeless and lost. Am I expecting so much more? Probably not, cause I'm not too sure if I have fully come to an agreement with myself that these sort of things are rigid and long lasting. So what are the actions to be taken? I suppose for the time being I can wait. Who knows I'll get tired of waiting.

Blegh... Truth be told I'm not up for another mid life complication. Why do I always get myself sucked into these things? Seriously? Sometimes I wonder what the hell is wrong with me. I'm probably cursed. Can I just live in a box where any sort of sentiments are non existence? That would be nice. Again saves me the trouble of having wants, needs and desires.

If only you would just open up and say something. I don't read minds. Hmm. I would pay just to have him talk. Regardless of what ever that is gona come out.

I realize the difference between me now and me then is that I am more prone to saying things out, especially about what I think. Or when I disagree about something. One good example was, when I snapped at my boss telling him to talk nicely. Seriously, me then would never even think of doing something so rude. So yeah, I kinda made the same mistake (Not too sure if it was a mistake) to a certain person. I didn't snapped or anything not at first atleast. Since then things have been different. But that is just how I roll now. Didn't mean to break anyone's heart but asking is better then assuming. Living in denial is the last thing you wana do despite how hurtful the truth may get.

Ah well. Only time will tell I suppose. If the person refuses to open up, I guess that's that. It's such a shame though cause I've never met a person like that before and I would love to get to know him better.

Come to think of it, this could be a good lesson for a person like me or perhaps you too. I kinda just came across two different types of people. One that easily spills his heart out and one that just doesn't. If you ask me which is a keeper? Honestly, I have no idea.


Til then.

Believe to achieve.

What fascinates me

Hi,

It intrigues me how one can make me wonder a million things. I can say that I am a person that thinks alot. Sometimes. Fascinating how god managed create mix of emotions and how these emotions are triggered by different occurrences.

For instance, this family as in my family weren't a big fan of cats. They pee and climb up on cars and leave footprints. Very much annoying. Until late last year, I do not really remember, two cats dropped by our place. They were our neighbors cats that wouldn't wana go back to their own home. So with time they managed to steal our hearts and they kinda became a PR at our home. We learned to love these cats and became quite attached. Two cats, namely Tuli and Gamuk. Sad story, Gamuk died afew days ago. It was found dead in our drain. I never thought I would cry but I did. My mum and my sisters as well. And to think we didn't even like cats. See how fascinating that is. How feelings can change from one form to another? Just like energy. There is one difference though, energy can't disappear but feelings can. If only there's a scientific explanation to the transition of feelings. Perhaps we can find a controlling agent to stop the transition from occuring.

I was browsing through my facebook timeline and came across posts and videos which I don't even remember posting. Some of the things I posted sounded quite smart. Heheh. Some were just simply corny and dorky. Heheh. Oh well. Got me back to the past a little bit there. How things have changed since the last six years. I was thinking to myself, if I was given the chance to go back into time, I wouldn't change anything. All the mistakes and regrets, they are memories made. And the good times are simply irreplaceable.

I'm just gone face life one day at time and probably hope for the best.  Gona go for a holiday trip. Can't wait. It has been awhile.

I think that is all for tonight.

P/S: I sometimes have a big mouth. Now I have to finish his slides. Hit self on the head.

The grass is always greener on the other side

Hey,

I m currently watching Pretty Little Liars online and came across a really nice song.

It's called let go of her hand by Right the stars. I am really getting annoyed with A. Seriously.

Anyhoots, my car is back in the workshop. Sigh. I had it sent last week and kinda have to send it again last Saturday. I have no idea how they do their job there. I am quite lucky to have a friend to help me out with sorting it out. I reckon because I am a lady the mechanics from the workshop were telling me things that were not quite right. Thinking I might just not find out. I might not know but I do know people that knows. So silly.

I just met this friend. I'm not too sure why he's very willing to help me sort out my car. Don't get me wrong I do appreciate what he's doing. He's even willing to skip work just to go to the workshop first thing tomorrow.  Hmm. He's pretty funny and very unusual in a way. Not too sure how to describe this person. Oh well. Thank You again friend. You might not read this but I'm sure god would know how to repay you.

I have something in mind that I would like to share before I leave.

She fell for one and her feelings were left to die.
She finally sees the greener grass on the other side.
She might not be able to stay and lay. On the grass so soft so green.
But atleast she got her feelings back. 
At ease she feels, her past fading.
To shades of gray and blurry rays.
She praises GOD for the lessons, she praises GOD for the experience.
For what she went through there are reasons.
To be wiser, stronger and bolder.
With that, here it officially ends.

Signing out.

Yours Truely.

Drive By

Hi *Smiling Big big*

A little bit of update from my side. Camp is over. We managed to go through it. Pat self at the back. It was fun I may say. About 80 kids turned up of different characters and attitudes. And boy, some of them were really smart. I had my panic moment as well. These kids were like 9 to 12 years old. So they practically cry about anything. Stomach ache, missing handphones, missing their mummies, hungry, sleepy. You name it! It didn't turn out bad though. The kids did have fun. My staff were once again very helpful.

I reminisced about some stuff this particular day and I missed having a nose stud. And guess what, yeap! Pierced my nose again. Just a day before the camp. It doesn't hurt as bad as when I did the first time. And truth be told I'm thinking of getting more on my ears. We'll see. Maybe next week.

 Spot the nose stud.

Can I be random now?

I have come across quite a number of different type of people. I recently came across a very unusual one. He's not weird or anything. Fairly interesting. But I can't seem to through him. Not a very usual guy that spills everything about himself. Kinda have to dig stuff out from him. Which I kinda find very interesting. Makes me wonder if he's like a loan shark or something or a gangster that runs a drug company. I don't know. At this point probably I will never find out. Oh well. It doesn't really matter. We had a good chat. I guess that's that.

Not that he will ever read this, I would like to convey this message to him anyway.

I had a good talk. Not always I would feel comfortable talking to a person I just met. And your ride, very hot. I wana marry it. Till we meet again friend.*Smiling Big Big*


That is all for tonight. Tomorrow awaits. And I miss my car.

Look Before You Leap

Dear Readers,

So...How u doin?

It is now June as you all know. June means camp is just around the corner. The school holiday is just around the corner and traffic game is JUST around the corner. And HE, as usual, is not helpful at all as USUAL. Ah well. Something good is bound to happen I'm sure. Why do I say this?  Cause a rainbow always comes after the rain.

Can I just say something. I have cleaned the room my self. I didn't make a big fuss about it. Sheesh. The things that comes out from your mouth, most of the time they are nonsense. Nonsense I tell you.

The people you have to put up with in your life. *sigh*

I know I'm not "Miss-all-perfecto". Atleast before I say things or do things I would think first. Was it never told to everybody to LOOK before you LEAP? If knives can kill words are worse, it gives prolonged mental and physical pain. I'd rather be dead. Seriously. I have no idea how some people think sometimes.

*Sigh* Ah well. I'm still alive. I guess I'll manage.

I've come across quite a number of NOT SO nice people. I wish I could just give each and everyone of them a piece of my mind. But that will never be the case.

I did something very drama queen-ish afew days ago. Not one bit I regret doing it. It's just normal that at one point you would blow if someone keeps on pressing your wrong button. There are times when I put too much faith on someone. What I learn today is, not everyone will turn out to be the person you expect them to be. That's just how life is. It's tough, wheather you like it or not, you're gona have to grow some balls and stomach the son of a gun. Grow some vagina how my brother would put it. *Don't ask me why.It's something that he got from 9gag* Anyhoots. It is what it is. After it happened my heart raced and my face turned hot and that only happens when I'm super MAD. I guess I was. Cause I remember hitting and kicking some stuff. Oh dear. I'm turning manly by the day. I don't think I wana ever do that again. Kinda lost myself for a moment there.

The camp is starting soon which means late nights, kids and office as my home will conquer. I'm not too sure how I'm gona juggle those things with tuition. One day at a time I reckon? All the best to yours truely. My job is good. How I wish we have a more charismatic leader. Then it'll be perfect. We kinda have one that tells us to look for a new job. And says that he wants to quit and he's actually looking for a new job. Rubbish I tell you. Its an utter nonsense. And he expects us to work like a top notch worker when he's there demotivating us with his gibberish? I doubt he notices. Think before you speak. Think! *sigh* Why god, why??

I got work to do. Maybe I should stop here. Need to get it done before the clock strikes 12am.

I got an iPod Nano. *Not in a way I thought I would* But yeah, I got an iPod Nano. Now I can go running with my music efficiently playing.

Warmest Regards,
Yours Truely.

Random

Hi,

It has been pretty quiet around here.

So I figured, maybe I should jot down the thoughts that were running in my head while I was in the shower earlier.

It's something random and out of the blue though.

I was thinking, maybe I'm ready to be a mom. Hehe. I like kids, the tubby ones. It's okay if my kid is not gonabe tubby, I'll make him/her tubby. I don't know. But my point is, I think I'm ready to be a mommy. It'll be nice.

So the plan is, I'll get married when I'm 27 and have my first kid when I'm 28. Prolly I'll have the second one when I'm 30.

It's just logic that in order to have kids, I need a husband. Do I have someone in mind you may ask? Honestly, I do not have anyone in mind at the moment. You can say that I kinda suck when it comes to judging a person to be with like seriously. So yeah.

But I believe I shall meet that one person that will treat me like a princess not because he has to but because he wants to. A man that shall make other beautiful girls be jealous of me and not the other way round. A man that I can count on and look up to.

Just wait for guy love to smile :) 

Interesting

Hi!

It was an ultimate interesting day for me today. Not exaggerating , but yeah, my day was  different than usual. Why? We got burnt man. One particular person kinda got surf literally. We,  as in me and my colleagues kinda had a tiny taste of the bullet as well. I was hoping it would be a good day at work today, it turned out to be scary instead. I kinda had a dejavu for a moment there. Reminded me of the time when a mean teacher walks in the class and I get all quiet and extremely attentive. That was what happened earlier at work today. I'm not gona spill out the details but the meeting that we had earlier was an eye opener I may say. It's good to have a person do sensible and professional commentaries on your work and what not. There are reasons to why they do that and it is not always because that they think you suck.

So sucks man. That's the 'in' sentence me and my friend uses these days. We are lame sometimes. Well what to do?

It was kinda brutal, what happened earlier. I can feel myself shrinking in my chair. I was really nervous that I couldn't type the word 'maintenance' correctly, in my head I was like thinking how the hell do you spell maintenance?

The verdict of the meeting? We kinda have to improve on our strategies on certain things, have better planning, the plan is there. I mean everyone knows that when you plan to fail you're planning to fail. I just don't know why with the plan that we had we still got shut down. Oh well. The bright side is, I have ample time to sort things out properly. Let's just hope he, who shall not be named, will not interfere and make a mess out of everything. I don't mind having him giving us the proper guidance and everything. I just don't like it when he comes up with stuff and not have thorough discussions with the rest of the team. So sucks man. So sucks. Hopefully me and my team can pull this off properly. Alot of things to look forward to this month. Will be going to Temburong. That's like just days before the run. Looking forward to that, meet students, do workshops. I reckon it will be good. June is coming, that means more camp, National Traffic Game and the June exam and other things which I do not remember. Oh dear.

Speaking of running, I went circuit today. Yeah man! After like how many months? Before you come to a conclusion of thinking that I'm a lazy bum, let me explain myself. I did gym trainings for like 2, 3 months, I took a break cause things happened, kinda lost the drive in a way. And then I continued by doing some running just before the SCB run. Took a break after that and decided to train again, just to get myself ready for the HSBC run. Why circuit and not the gym you may wonder?

One reason, at the moment I do not have a trainer. The trainer I had kinda bailed. So sucks man. I know. Hence, if I were to go training myself, I might just look stupid, cause I forgot some of the routines and I might just hurt myself. I'm a slow learner when it comes to these things. I can do some, but the precision wouldn't be there. Another reason is, for those who has ever done weight trainings before, real ones, not just go there to look sexy and just to tailgate your six pack boyfriend, I mean really go training, you'd understand, you kinda need someone to yell at you and force you to do all the routines. If you're doing it alone, especially if you're a beginner it wouldn't be a fruitful training. Probably not as fruitful as when you have someone to push you all the way. For those who are still going strong on your gym trainings I envy you. I'll do my homework no worries. I'll head to the gym in the near future, when my confidence is there.

Why did I decide to go back to doing circuits? I came across an article saying, if you wana increase your running performance, you can do so by doing strength trainings. In getfit, we do weights we do laps all sorts of supersets which really tests your endurance, strength, stamina and what not. it contains all the ingredients that I sorta need for this upcoming run. So why not right? It wouldn't make me as 'shapely' as when I train in the gym though, it might actually make me more skinny. Bright side, I wouldn't be carrying too much weight when I go running. But still, too skinny no good. I don't mind losing some fats on my face though. We'll see, I believe if I eat right, I wouldn't be losing that much weight.

The training earlier was painful. Probably because I haven't been doing anything like that in quite awhile. However, it was good. The last WOD we did was a 400m sprint. The trainer was saying, if we give it all out we can finish it in 2 minutes. I was thinking, no way dude, not gona happen, not today. I kinda clocked 1 min 45 sec. I was surprised myself. And I was running in my vibrams. Those things hurt by the way. It takes quite sometime for you to get use to it I reckon.

We had to do like a hundred sit ups , push ups, burpees etc. And now, I kinda have an abrasion on my ass from the sit ups. So sucks man.

My palm reads, I feel burnt

Please do join getfit crossfit if you wana get bruises and cuts. 

It does always make you feel good by the end of the day though. Cause you know, regardless of what ever workouts or exercises that you do, it makes you healthier.

I think I have written enough for tonight.

Till next time.

Ayam Sabung

So I'm like thinking why?

And How?


Kawan saya cakap dia buat orang macam ayam sabung.

Dia simpan dua ayam suruh sabung dan dia lihat dari siring. Saya fikir, kenapa seseorang boleh berfikiran begitu sedang kan mereka sentiasa berniat baik tehadap beliau? Adakah jejaka itu tidak mempunyai perasaan? Ataupun dia sedang asyik melihat ayam serama yang asyik bersabung sesama jenis?

Disini saya berfikir akan apa yang terlintas didalam fikiran beliau?

Satu perkara yang saya harapkan ialah, tuhan akan menjauhi orang itu dari saya.

You might be wondering why on earth did I write in malay? First because I am one. Second, its a good attempt to brush up on my malay writing skills. Been composing letters in malay these past few days and I dont wana suck.

That is all for now.

P/S: I like Justin when he sings.

Little thing called love

I just finished watching a Thai Movie.Yes. A thai movie called "Little thing called love". It's a very corny teenage movie, but I kinda enjoyed it. Probably it's safe to say that I am a corny person at one point or another. The movie was about a girl that has a crush on this boy. Obviously. The word corny at the very beginning kinda explains itself.  For many years of having a crush at the boy, they eventually got together.

I am gonabe a little bit frank and bold with tonight's post. I do not care if some of you are gona judge me or perhaps think that I have a sad life. Or probably tweet about how lousy of a teacher I am. Let me say it now, I do not give a fuck. I am open to freedom of speech and you can go Fuck yourself.

Anyway, you know what I have not been doing for a really long time? Have a crush on a person. The last time I had a crush on a person was about 5 to 6 years ago? When was the last time you had a crush on a person? How do you differentiate between a crush and NOT a crush? You know that it's a crush when you like the guy, but you do not go out on a date with him, do not have his number and he makes you wonder if he knows your existence. Freaky, but yeah it's kinda true. You know it's a crush, when he passes by and smiles at you and says hi, you'd jump around like a hippy when he's out of sight. Funny but true. That was what happened to me when I had a crush on this dude. You know it's a crush, when you find out that he has a girlfriend and you become a tad sad and move on and still secretly thinks he's cute. That's a crush, a simple form of sentiment towards a person, whereby any agony results from the person being with somebody else wouldn't even kill a tiny bug. Simple and nice. As I was saying, it has been awhile since I've had a crush on somebody. Hmm..

And another thing that I have not done in awhile is go on a first date. The last time I went on a real first date was, I don't know, way before I entered uni. Damn. I kinda threw my social life away after I entered uni didn't I? How do you differentiate if it was a real first date or just a simple dinner or lunch? First, he would pick you up from home. And before you see him, you would actually have butterflies in your tummy and you would pick the right attire to wear precisely. Not to mention nervous and super excited. How do I know these things? That's what I felt on the very first 'first date' I had with this guy that I used to date. And it's a real first date when you actually like like the guy and actually waits for him to call you back. That first date would probably be the most proper 'first date' I have had, cause I can still remember it until now. I dated the guy only for a couple of months though, probably that is why the only thing I can remember about him is the first date that we had. Hehehe. I did go out for lunch with this dude a few months ago, we ended our lunch with an awkward hug. Hehehehe. That was funny. He didn't manage to give me that jittery feeling that I was looking for. So yeah. We are still friends, I guess we're cool.

Oh, how I miss. Life was simpler back then. I think. Now it's just like a crumpled paper with stains that I can't just get rid of. Gah! My birthday is coming, I'm not really looking forward for it. How I wish I can skip it. Partly because my dad won't be around. So it'll be family dinner minus one. I think. I don't know. It doesn't matter, I already told my mum not to get me a cake and what not. I might sound like a depress little child right now. I don't mind having the spotlight all to my little sister for now. Need to get her a birthday present. Probably tomorrow.

What else is there?

Have you ever been in love with someone that it hurts? I have. And now I'm thinking why and how? Love is a strong word and most of the time it is overrated. But then again, who wouldn't overrate love? For a girl it means more than just a form of sentiment towards somebody. A girl may say they do not want flowers, they do not want presents, they do not want their boyfriend to be there 24/7, truth be told, in most cases that's not true. It IS when she thinks you are NOT the one she wana spend the rest of her life with. A girl would always want the attention. Mind you, here I am talking about the girls that wana spend the rest of her life with you. If you think your girl is cool for not being clingy most of the time, sorry to say dude, you're probably just her rebound or her toyboy.Boytoy?You get what I mean.

One piece of advise to girls out there, if you wana give full amount of lovey dovey heart love to a dude, just make sure you give it to the right guy. A guy that gives you back as much as what you give to him. If he gives you so much more, then he is definitely a keeper. You can bring him home to your Momma. I'm not too sure if I actually gave mine to the right person. I reckon I might've misplaced mine. Imagine you falling into quick sand. One thing for sure, it's hard to get out from it. If you panic and try to get yourself out when you're panicky you might drown and die. The only way is to calm yourself down and get out slowly. That is what happens when you donate your heart full of cotton candy love to the wrong person.

How do you know if you have the right guy? I would probably be the last person you would wana ask that. Heheh. You can pray to god. He knows everything, he's the one that gives you anything and everything. So yeah.


On a different note, installation of my exhibition is completed. Yeay me! Two Australians, Mark and Lawson plus Gary came Brunei to help us with the exhibition. Awesome and skillful guys they were. Gona miss them.The exhibition stuff are pretty cool. Can't wait to see the faces of the kids when they play with the exhibits. I believe they would enjoy it very much. Other than that, got some other stuff that needs to be sorted out. Again challenge accepted! :)

AND!I've been missing out on my trainings. Seriously. Not GOOD! I found out an interesting fact. Wait for it!

Strength training can actually boosts your performance in running. Hip hip hooray. That's one useful fact. The only problem now is, implementing it. Yikes.


This must be one of the longest post I have ever made. I know the shortest one is the one titled if you do not know what to say don't say anything. I practically didn't type anything. Hmm. I reckon depression kinda hit me that time. So I guess, thanks to those who actually read the whole thing. I personally think you are awesome.

Have a great night. Life's too short for you to spend it on something worthless. So look before you leap.

Bye

You can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness

This is good music:

Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over
Part of me believing it was always something that I'd done
But I don't wanna live that way
Reading into every word you say
You said that you could let it go
And I wouldn't catch you hung up on somebody that you used to know

Dear Self

This is retweeted:

3 things you cannot recover in life: the word after it is said, the moment after it is missed and the time after it is gone.

I saw a video posted by Brunei Tweet created by a group of people fighting against teenage bullying and suicide. The project so happens to be called The Nina Project. You never thought how a simple word may draw such a big impact on a person emotionally.

I've said some things which I regret saying, I've done things which I'm not proud of and I've missed out on good opportunities due to my carelessness and ignorance. Quoted from a friend " Dear Self, I apologize..". And to the person I've said mean things to " Dear you, I apologize..".There are times when I wished that I could turn back time. But I know better that it is not possible and I know that there are reasons behind every happenings. Not everyday life is good. Not everyday it's rainbows and butterflies. But that doesn't mean you're just gona let yourself fall and cry right?

On a different note, I get agitated easily these days. Even when people messes up the office table or the office counter it really gets to me. And the weird thing is I've moved pass my PMS period. Damn.

Btw I clocked 10km in about 1 hr 15 minutes. Not too shabby for a first timer I reckon. My mum used to do marathons and cross countries. *Yes I know. It's hard to believe, but yeah, she kinda did all these things even before slim and small mobile phones were invented* Now I know why she likes doing these things. It is kinda fun. At the same time it forces you to keep fit. Will be doing the 6km for the HSBC runwalkcycle. I think it'll be more fun since we'll be running at night, will register soon. If you haven't lets do it together. :)

Before I go, this is dedicated to you.

Monkey Butt

You know, as you grow older you come across all these types of people with different characters and attitudes. Some are nice some are just blurghh, they make you wince like there's no tomorrow.

From high school to uni to work, you can imagine the transition of "friends" you'd come across.

Truth be told, there are only a handful of good people on this earth. Authentically, genuinely a good person at heart. I am yet to find one though. A super nice person I mean.

I had a long day today and it wasn't too good. I bought a pair of purple crocs and my mum was like saying "did you get another crocs?" I was like thinking my blue shoe ripped and I reckon she was the one who threw it away and don't even remember doing it. What choice do I have, I needed a comfortable flats and crocs was my best option. Those things are quite pricey though. Oh well. Don't get me wrong, that wasn't the thing that was making my day slightly crappy than usual. Moms will always be moms, that's all I can say.

I don't get how certain people think sometimes.There are times when I think too much about it I end up thinking probably I'm the one with the problem. There are people who are just too ignorant with the things that comes out from their mouth. Senseless , irrational things just spurts out and it's either they do not realize it or they just "pretend" not to realize it. I admit I am not that nice of a person I can be stupid senseless or irresponsible at times but I do always try to better myself or maybe atleast try not to do it you know. Cause a normal person would be able to sense inappropriate or irrational actions and would actually withdraw or withhold themselves from doing these indecent actions. Sadly, there are people who are, I don't even know what's the word, who are like monkey butts! I would like to say morons, probably that would be too harsh, I'm just gonna stick to monkey butt.
You put a monkey butt with a person like me in a room, you'll get an angry ambiance. Half the time a monkey butt would say nonsense and he or she wouldn't even realize it.

Have you ever been so angry that your heart actually raced and your face gets hot?

I reckon this is another test for me from god. I've had a good share of a series of unfortunate events. He has something for me at the end of the line. Something good I know. Its normal for a human to have to put up with nonsense before the good things come along.

I overdosed myself with Easyway. Not too sure if that's fine or not.


That's a wrap. Goodnight.

No reason to give up 2

Hi...Here I am, back again.

Before I continue rambling about what I was saying last night let me just talk a little bit about what I did today. :)

I slept a little longer than usual and my goodness it felt really good, I was too caught up with work the last week that I was actually having sleep deprivation and I didn't even notice.*Yes I am exaggerating* But yeah, I sleep off almost all of my Saturday no regrets there though, have not slept like that in awhile.

I managed to go running earlier, happy me :) The SCB run is just next week, I haven't even given back the money collection card. I wouldn't say I am proud of my performance today, with the time I took doing the 4.5k today, it'll take me some time to finish off the 10k. I did think of withdrawing from the 10k and join just the 5k, but HE (my trainer supposedly, until further notice) told me to not give up and just do it. Cause as it stands this isn't going to be my last run. He has a point though. For now it's not about winning, YET, it's about finishing your goal. There I was typing about stuff with regards to not quitting and then today here I am telling you it has occurred to me to actually quit. Ironic yea. But the case now is, I am NOT withdrawing from the 10k. So there, I'm not giving up without trying first. There is this saying that goes something like this, failing is not the greatest failure giving up without trying is.There you go, the sentence speaks for itself. Just afew hours ago was the earth hour, we were the only house that had our lights out in our area. Sad but true. Glad we could help to make the world a better place though.

It's weird how I'm already kinda sleepy. Can I be random for a bit? I miss going to supa save. The old one. I went to the one in KB recently thinking I could get that apple that I like that costs 80 cents each, they do have it, its just that they were kinda squishy, so I didn't get any. Again sad but true.

Ok probably now is a good time for me to resume my last night's argument.

As I was saying, I just do not get why they should give up even before they give it a shot. In this case a really strong one *but worth it*. I have to admit math is one of the toughest subjects these kids have ever encountered at their age. Here I am talking about 15 to 17 years old perhaps? I'm saddened by this fact cause I know they will sure regret not putting all the best they can and it would already be too late.

I used to say to myself that I do not wanabe a teacher when I grow up and to think, I have been teaching part time for almost 3 years now. That's like more than a100 students? And there are times when I pass by my ex students they would still call me "teacher". And I actually think them calling me that has a good ring to it. :)

Like what they all say, you do not know what the future holds.

Can I just say another thing before I end tonight's post?

Not everyone can be your friend or nice or thankful for what you have done for them. It's a fact. It's a fact too that everyone leaves, everybody lies and everyone will backstab you at one point or another. A friend will still bitch about you at one point, a boyfriend will still cheat on you at one point your bff will de-friend you at one point. It was, is and will always be like that whether you like it or not. And it's just a handful of people that do not encounter this phenomena. You can trust me on that one.

I think that is all for now.

And this is dedicated to you.

P/s : What is up with people's husbands now adays?  Why do I keep on coming across this type of people? Sheesh

No reason to give up

Just this morning I had a sudden rush of blogging about the thing that's currently bothering me, unfortunately as time passes by that momentum decreases proportionally with my body energy. However, I am still going to type out as much as I can tonight and share with you the thing, probably things, that's currently bothering me.

Here we go. Kids now adays are too pampered. They give up easily and they would rather spend their time socializing on the ever so growing social networks and media that we currently have. Bare in mind I am talking about some kids and NOT all kids. I don't get how they are so good at dressing up, putting on make up or playing games and going on facebook, twitter or instagram, but can't do simple algebraic problems. By the end of the day, who gets blamed by their parents? Their teachers. I mean where is the sense in that? And I don't get how parents would just let their kids give up on something, in this case a subject, just because they think it's too hard for them to handle. I mean, seriously. Also, I hate the fact that these kids would actually give up without even trying hard. I mean, there is no such thing as impossible if you actually try hard enough and really put your mind into it. It really frustrates me to hear a student quitting tuition when I know that they are really in need of intensive tutorial and the fact that their parents let them, it's an abysmal form of parenting! Sigh. I can no longer tell whether these parents actually know where their kids stand in school. Do they even know or do they even have time to teach their kids at home? Do they even care?At one point or another, you still have to teach or maybe check on your kid's progress and what not with their school stuff. Parents should know to not literally rely on tuition teachers to make their kids be outstanding. Parents should know that they too play a big role on their kids school life. Not that I am asking the parents to literally teach their kids, maybe just make them practice the exercises that was given to them during their tuition classes would actually be sufficient. Not only that, I believe a motivation from the parents is crucial too. We teachers are not asking too much from students and parents honestly. We just want your (parents) kids to be smarter than she or he already is and a tiny helping hand would do. Sigh.


I shall continue this post tomorrow, or perhaps soon enough.

Eyes too sleepy. Goodnight you.