No reason to give up 2

Hi...Here I am, back again.

Before I continue rambling about what I was saying last night let me just talk a little bit about what I did today. :)

I slept a little longer than usual and my goodness it felt really good, I was too caught up with work the last week that I was actually having sleep deprivation and I didn't even notice.*Yes I am exaggerating* But yeah, I sleep off almost all of my Saturday no regrets there though, have not slept like that in awhile.

I managed to go running earlier, happy me :) The SCB run is just next week, I haven't even given back the money collection card. I wouldn't say I am proud of my performance today, with the time I took doing the 4.5k today, it'll take me some time to finish off the 10k. I did think of withdrawing from the 10k and join just the 5k, but HE (my trainer supposedly, until further notice) told me to not give up and just do it. Cause as it stands this isn't going to be my last run. He has a point though. For now it's not about winning, YET, it's about finishing your goal. There I was typing about stuff with regards to not quitting and then today here I am telling you it has occurred to me to actually quit. Ironic yea. But the case now is, I am NOT withdrawing from the 10k. So there, I'm not giving up without trying first. There is this saying that goes something like this, failing is not the greatest failure giving up without trying is.There you go, the sentence speaks for itself. Just afew hours ago was the earth hour, we were the only house that had our lights out in our area. Sad but true. Glad we could help to make the world a better place though.

It's weird how I'm already kinda sleepy. Can I be random for a bit? I miss going to supa save. The old one. I went to the one in KB recently thinking I could get that apple that I like that costs 80 cents each, they do have it, its just that they were kinda squishy, so I didn't get any. Again sad but true.

Ok probably now is a good time for me to resume my last night's argument.

As I was saying, I just do not get why they should give up even before they give it a shot. In this case a really strong one *but worth it*. I have to admit math is one of the toughest subjects these kids have ever encountered at their age. Here I am talking about 15 to 17 years old perhaps? I'm saddened by this fact cause I know they will sure regret not putting all the best they can and it would already be too late.

I used to say to myself that I do not wanabe a teacher when I grow up and to think, I have been teaching part time for almost 3 years now. That's like more than a100 students? And there are times when I pass by my ex students they would still call me "teacher". And I actually think them calling me that has a good ring to it. :)

Like what they all say, you do not know what the future holds.

Can I just say another thing before I end tonight's post?

Not everyone can be your friend or nice or thankful for what you have done for them. It's a fact. It's a fact too that everyone leaves, everybody lies and everyone will backstab you at one point or another. A friend will still bitch about you at one point, a boyfriend will still cheat on you at one point your bff will de-friend you at one point. It was, is and will always be like that whether you like it or not. And it's just a handful of people that do not encounter this phenomena. You can trust me on that one.

I think that is all for now.

And this is dedicated to you.

P/s : What is up with people's husbands now adays?  Why do I keep on coming across this type of people? Sheesh

No reason to give up

Just this morning I had a sudden rush of blogging about the thing that's currently bothering me, unfortunately as time passes by that momentum decreases proportionally with my body energy. However, I am still going to type out as much as I can tonight and share with you the thing, probably things, that's currently bothering me.

Here we go. Kids now adays are too pampered. They give up easily and they would rather spend their time socializing on the ever so growing social networks and media that we currently have. Bare in mind I am talking about some kids and NOT all kids. I don't get how they are so good at dressing up, putting on make up or playing games and going on facebook, twitter or instagram, but can't do simple algebraic problems. By the end of the day, who gets blamed by their parents? Their teachers. I mean where is the sense in that? And I don't get how parents would just let their kids give up on something, in this case a subject, just because they think it's too hard for them to handle. I mean, seriously. Also, I hate the fact that these kids would actually give up without even trying hard. I mean, there is no such thing as impossible if you actually try hard enough and really put your mind into it. It really frustrates me to hear a student quitting tuition when I know that they are really in need of intensive tutorial and the fact that their parents let them, it's an abysmal form of parenting! Sigh. I can no longer tell whether these parents actually know where their kids stand in school. Do they even know or do they even have time to teach their kids at home? Do they even care?At one point or another, you still have to teach or maybe check on your kid's progress and what not with their school stuff. Parents should know to not literally rely on tuition teachers to make their kids be outstanding. Parents should know that they too play a big role on their kids school life. Not that I am asking the parents to literally teach their kids, maybe just make them practice the exercises that was given to them during their tuition classes would actually be sufficient. Not only that, I believe a motivation from the parents is crucial too. We teachers are not asking too much from students and parents honestly. We just want your (parents) kids to be smarter than she or he already is and a tiny helping hand would do. Sigh.


I shall continue this post tomorrow, or perhaps soon enough.

Eyes too sleepy. Goodnight you.

Tomorrow awaits

Hey,


It has been awhile I may say. Was caught up with work and life itself. As you can see from my previous post I was complaining about work and what not. I reckon I was hit by intimidation and insecurity. So I did what I do best, go with the flow. *hehe right!* Well I do try hard to go with the flow on certain things in life. I may fail most of the time and that's because I'm only human.

So I went through each day believing that I should try my best. It started with the camp. Alhamdulilah it went well. The teacher was happy and even gave us souvenirs, which was really sweet. My staff were really awesome, despite having only one hour of sleep they still did an excellent job.

Just days after that, we had to help CEA to host the HBT meet the fans session. They kinda caught me off guard, it was on short notice *seriously, I don't like*. Had to do last minute arrangements with our event management and what not. I'm happy to say, we made it through. I was the emcee for the event *who would've thought, I have it in me*. The HBT fans were really cool, I managed to make them chant the famous ole ole for the 'Tebuan' squad. It was fun.

Last but not least, I managed to get the contract signed. WOOT! Now what I need to worry about is the logistics arrangement with our event management. Having no internet at the office isn't making things easier. That won't stop from getting this done though, you can trust me on that one. *Smiles*

The followings might have been tackled, but that doesn't change the fact that I still have other things to look into honestly. But it's okay, what doesn't kill me makes me stronger. *I'm not sure if that applies here* But yeah, work has been good, doing something for the community is one of the many things that I wanna do. Since, the place I'm currently working at is a non-profit organization so I'm guessing I'm on the right path.

Should I make today's post a long lengthy one, til it reach a point where you would think 'this is just too damn long' and yawn? Let's just see how it goes. It has been awhile since I've blogged it might take awhile before I come back here and write something, might as well make full use of the time that I have at the moment.

I came across a lady's blog, I can say she's really good. This lady isn't a famous blogger like Rano or the pink haired girl or anyone along that line. Just a regular blogger that just started blogging. Her dream is to be a famous writer, with her writings she can go far but with her being in Brunei, I'm not too sure. But yeah, her vocabulary is excellent and her  grammar is top notch. I envy those who can write and speaks very well. And when I say, speaks or writes well, I mean literally speaks or writes well, not just some stuck up individual who THINKS she or he is good, but true fact, he or she needs English lessons. Anyway, I wish her all the best.

I would like to say something random now.
I want to eat sea food.

Incase you are still in the mood to read something cause I'm just about done, read this:

http://www.borneobulletin.com.bn/tue/mar20h30.htm
http://www.brudirect.com/index.php/Local-News/hbt-champs-wow-fans-in-belait-district.html

P/s
A little something for you.

Her heart still flutters when she is around him
She knows it has been awhile
But there's just too much history
Is she holding on to something that is not worth while?

When their hands touch
She can feel the warmth of his skin and it made her tingle
The times he makes her laugh
She will never forget
The times he makes her cry
She will always remember.
Why is this happening she wonders?

Is god punishing her, she wonders?
Is this a blessing in disguise?
She will never know she says.
She will never know.


Tomorrow awaits. Have a good sleep.

Challenge Accepted

Hi.

You should know that my head is heavy and my back hurts as I am composing this post.

I am so not looking forward for this coming two weeks.

Let me give you a heads up, you are about to read a post full of complaints and negativity. Leave while you still can. If you think you can withstand the dark cloud that I'm going to portray or if you think my misery actually gives you a tiny glimpse of happiness please do continue reading.

First, I haven't been training as much and I haven't been running as much. Which I should. Coz being a confident smarty pants that I am most of the time, too complaisant as how my boss would put it, whatever that means, I reckon it means too confident *I'm just too tired to google* , I actually registered myself in the 10Km for the SCB marathon. Yeap! That's 30 bucks I'll never see again. I'm not too sure why I have been slacking. Probably it's because of the work that is piling up. Sigh. This is bad. So bad.

Second, we have the MS camp coming. Will have to entertain 250 people. Which means, sleepless nights awaits.

Third, the Boss and Raihan will be going on leave. Which means, I'll be sailing the ship. Will I be able to do so? Hopefully. The only problem that keeps on running in my head is the sorting out of the contract with Gary for the new exhibition.

Oh well. There's nothing much I can do now can I? Kinda have to be a man and do the right thing. That's it. Well, it's easy said than done.

On a different note, tuition has been good. The number of my students are slowly increasing, which is great. Alhamdulilah. 

I can do this!

Before you leave this is worth listening to:

I won't give up on us,
Even if the skies get rough,
I'm giving you all my love,
I'm still looking up.

Adore always,

Yours truely

Trust

Trust.

What do you understand by the word?

For me it is a strong word. It holds a meaning that most people do not get. Who is the blame? Ofcourse not the dictionary.

I've had my share of shattered trust and broken promises, ironic how these sorts of things actually qualifies to be one of the many things that makes you an inch wiser. Its a fact that everybody lies. Hence, putting a full blast mind boggling amount of trust on someone is a humongous mistake. Why do people lie? Lots of reasons. Why you may ask me. Why don't you ask yourself first why do you lie.

I'm not so sure where I am going with tonight's post. My mind is partially stagnant due to sleep deprivation. I think.

Probably I shall proceed when I have something better to write. Cause I literally just stared at the monitor screen for about 5 minutes and nothing good came out.

Goodbye sunshine

Just when you think..

You are still yet to find..

Just when the birds are about to sing..

Again you stand by the brink.


Someday. Somewhere. I believe.

Lullaby help me sleep tonight