I just finished watching a Thai Movie.Yes. A thai movie called "Little thing called love". It's a very corny teenage movie, but I kinda enjoyed it. Probably it's safe to say that I am a corny person at one point or another. The movie was about a girl that has a crush on this boy. Obviously. The word corny at the very beginning kinda explains itself. For many years of having a crush at the boy, they eventually got together.
I am gonabe a little bit frank and bold with tonight's post. I do not care if some of you are gona judge me or perhaps think that I have a sad life. Or probably tweet about how lousy of a teacher I am. Let me say it now, I do not give a fuck. I am open to freedom of speech and you can go Fuck yourself.
Anyway, you know what I have not been doing for a really long time? Have a crush on a person. The last time I had a crush on a person was about 5 to 6 years ago? When was the last time you had a crush on a person? How do you differentiate between a crush and NOT a crush? You know that it's a crush when you like the guy, but you do not go out on a date with him, do not have his number and he makes you wonder if he knows your existence. Freaky, but yeah it's kinda true. You know it's a crush, when he passes by and smiles at you and says hi, you'd jump around like a hippy when he's out of sight. Funny but true. That was what happened to me when I had a crush on this dude. You know it's a crush, when you find out that he has a girlfriend and you become a tad sad and move on and still secretly thinks he's cute. That's a crush, a simple form of sentiment towards a person, whereby any agony results from the person being with somebody else wouldn't even kill a tiny bug. Simple and nice. As I was saying, it has been awhile since I've had a crush on somebody. Hmm..
And another thing that I have not done in awhile is go on a first date. The last time I went on a real first date was, I don't know, way before I entered uni. Damn. I kinda threw my social life away after I entered uni didn't I? How do you differentiate if it was a real first date or just a simple dinner or lunch? First, he would pick you up from home. And before you see him, you would actually have butterflies in your tummy and you would pick the right attire to wear precisely. Not to mention nervous and super excited. How do I know these things? That's what I felt on the very first 'first date' I had with this guy that I used to date. And it's a real first date when you actually like like the guy and actually waits for him to call you back. That first date would probably be the most proper 'first date' I have had, cause I can still remember it until now. I dated the guy only for a couple of months though, probably that is why the only thing I can remember about him is the first date that we had. Hehehe. I did go out for lunch with this dude a few months ago, we ended our lunch with an awkward hug. Hehehehe. That was funny. He didn't manage to give me that jittery feeling that I was looking for. So yeah. We are still friends, I guess we're cool.
Oh, how I miss. Life was simpler back then. I think. Now it's just like a crumpled paper with stains that I can't just get rid of. Gah! My birthday is coming, I'm not really looking forward for it. How I wish I can skip it. Partly because my dad won't be around. So it'll be family dinner minus one. I think. I don't know. It doesn't matter, I already told my mum not to get me a cake and what not. I might sound like a depress little child right now. I don't mind having the spotlight all to my little sister for now. Need to get her a birthday present. Probably tomorrow.
What else is there?
Have you ever been in love with someone that it hurts? I have. And now I'm thinking why and how? Love is a strong word and most of the time it is overrated. But then again, who wouldn't overrate love? For a girl it means more than just a form of sentiment towards somebody. A girl may say they do not want flowers, they do not want presents, they do not want their boyfriend to be there 24/7, truth be told, in most cases that's not true. It IS when she thinks you are NOT the one she wana spend the rest of her life with. A girl would always want the attention. Mind you, here I am talking about the girls that wana spend the rest of her life with you. If you think your girl is cool for not being clingy most of the time, sorry to say dude, you're probably just her rebound or her toyboy.Boytoy?You get what I mean.
One piece of advise to girls out there, if you wana give full amount of lovey dovey heart love to a dude, just make sure you give it to the right guy. A guy that gives you back as much as what you give to him. If he gives you so much more, then he is definitely a keeper. You can bring him home to your Momma. I'm not too sure if I actually gave mine to the right person. I reckon I might've misplaced mine. Imagine you falling into quick sand. One thing for sure, it's hard to get out from it. If you panic and try to get yourself out when you're panicky you might drown and die. The only way is to calm yourself down and get out slowly. That is what happens when you donate your heart full of cotton candy love to the wrong person.
How do you know if you have the right guy? I would probably be the last person you would wana ask that. Heheh. You can pray to god. He knows everything, he's the one that gives you anything and everything. So yeah.
On a different note, installation of my exhibition is completed. Yeay me! Two Australians, Mark and Lawson plus Gary came Brunei to help us with the exhibition. Awesome and skillful guys they were. Gona miss them.The exhibition stuff are pretty cool. Can't wait to see the faces of the kids when they play with the exhibits. I believe they would enjoy it very much. Other than that, got some other stuff that needs to be sorted out. Again challenge accepted! :)
AND!I've been missing out on my trainings. Seriously. Not GOOD! I found out an interesting fact. Wait for it!
Strength training can actually boosts your performance in running. Hip hip hooray. That's one useful fact. The only problem now is, implementing it. Yikes.
This must be one of the longest post I have ever made. I know the shortest one is the one titled if you do not know what to say don't say anything. I practically didn't type anything. Hmm. I reckon depression kinda hit me that time. So I guess, thanks to those who actually read the whole thing. I personally think you are awesome.
Have a great night. Life's too short for you to spend it on something worthless. So look before you leap.
Bye
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