Schizophrenic

Have you ever had the feeling that you simply can't do something?It's not that you can't CAN'T, it's just hard and takes alot, very much alot of your time. The people around you would say, do come and see us if you need help and when you actually do  and see them, they would ask too many questions. Instead of finding solutions to your doubts you end with more doubts. Yours truly is currently under such situation and I do not, I repeat, I DO NOT like it. I wana cry *Sob sob.

My friend thinks I'm organize. I thought so too. I'm starting to think, not up to the standard of my job requirement. I have a planner. *I have unusual interest towards fancy planners or note books. I am not a hoarder or anything like that, but I kinda have like, I don't know about six 2012 planners *and actually thought of buying more, the cute ones from a bookstore. Got them for free and I couldn't resist taking more than I need i.e ONE. Since most of them are kinda thick and eating up my ever so BIG room space, I'm gona have to give some away. I think I kinda went off track a lil bit didn't I? As I was saying, got a planner and all, still I am not as efficient and sufficient as I want myself to be. My tuition classes are starting soon and I am kinda very anxious about how I am gonabe able to divide my time between my jobs and my trainings. Yes the weekend is there and yes I do not teach 7 days straight but having two jobs kinda make you suffer mental fatigue at the end of the day. Lots of negativity flying about for today's post ey.

And do you know what else is hard? Delegating and leading. Managing and planning. Gah! I need a break from reality. Where's my spaceman? 

Incase someone sees him, please pass on this message.

Dear Nina's Spaceman,

Please bring me to Disney land, where I can see fireworks and eat colorful candies and I wouldn't ever get diabetes. I wana shop in New York and go to Hollywood and never be broke. I wana eat pizza with lots and lots of cheese. And when I come back from my dream vacation I want my work to be done and have my table and papers organized.

Thank You.

P/s Please leave Easyway's Green apple jelly green tea on my table. I have not drank it for sooo long I forgot how it taste like. And Dr Pepper too please.

Dear readers,

Thanks for actually reading my close to schizophrenic post for today. This is just momentary *I think. :)

My day was long and still humid.How was yours? *it'd be cool if someone random actually answers me. Hmm..

We were meant to live for so much more