Smiley Face

It's christmas day today. I had a good day of sleeping and resting. Probably I'm gona go back to working on my brochure for the work place. We'll see.

Now that I am the marketing coordinator I have been working on things like updating the facebook, the website, doing the press release and I reckon alot more. Since 2013 is just days away there will be alot to cover. Well, provided the other department has something for me publicized about. Now that I write stuff to promote the company I have to improve my english interms of writing and speaking. I can write or speak proper english but then again there's always room for improvements.

I received a good news few days ago. I applied for master about 6 months ago and just recently I have received an offer letter form the university. My course starts January next year and I have nothing prepared. Since I will be doing it part time I have to arrange my work schedule and classes and as of now I have no idea how that is gona turn out. I blame the uni for not coming back to me soon enough regarding my application. I had to go up and down the uni just to check with them about my application. This is exactly what I am afraid of. I am restricted to just days to get things sorted out and I do not look forward to driving up and down bandar to just to have things clarified. Because I know the people that I will be liaising will not give me the exact answer just like that. How do I know this? That's because that's what I experienced with my application and when I asked about if I can do the course that I applied for part-time.

But whatever it is, I shall work for it and get things sorted out no matter what it takes.

I can't really imagine how things are gonabe like, to be working and studying at the same time. If I really think about it, kinda suicidal. But I've worked two jobs before, so it should be fine right? Truth be told I am quite nervous about the whole thing. But then again I kinda have to grow some balls and face it.It would be a lie if I say I'm not excited at all, I am though, very!

My good girlfriend is getting married soon. SO happy for her. And the other friend that just got married recently is now expecting a baby. So nice. We all have something to look forward to next year and I am very excited for everybody. May 2013 bring us prosperity and joy all year round. Insha allah.

I had so much more to share, but I can't seem to recall what they are.

Oh yes, I know how to kip now. Do hundred skips without feeling sucky afterwards and I can do the monkey bar!! AND, I went for my first kickboxing class last week and it was super awesome!! Loved it! I feel alot stronger now though I have not been watching my food as much, which is not good, will definitely work on that.

I can say my 2012 has thought me alot. I had my ups and downs,  that's life for you right. Will end this post with some pictures just to show you how giddy I am inside. Tee hee..

For once I am happy and it's not because of a GUY. Interesting.

First ARTWORK by yours truly. I cheated a little though, Hehe

That is all for tonight I guess. Night night all.

I did it

Hello Dear Readers,

How u doin?

It has been a good week for me. Did Let's Extreme, which means I traveled the whole four district in 2 days confined. Managed to run my camp that I chaired. Brought the campers to Pusat Insani and HPC and it was great. And just tonight I found out that there is green apple jelly again! Woot!

It was a tiring week but I had lots of fun. Gotta go back to reality though. Oh the only sad thing that happened is, my phone broke down, now I'm trying to figure out where to send to have it fixed.
Oh and SUPA SAVE is opened. I'm loving it! I can get Dr Pepper anytime I want now and there wouldn't be any 15% mark ups. Lovve it!

I have a feeling that it's gonabe a short post for tonight. I am already kinda sleepy.

I have a big plan coming ahead. Hopefully I'm making the right choice. I'm really terrified that is all I can say.

So Yeah. Nite nite.

So Random

Well hello, It's TGIF for me and suddenly I have the urge to blog using my IPAD. Weird how I have this thing for almost two years now and it is still as empty as a broken a hearted man. Weird comparison, but hey, it's fun like that.

We had about an hour or so left at work today. It was just me, haz and izi (not their real names, cause I figured for today's post I shouldn't be mentioning real names. Why? You'll find out soon)at the office. I donot know how and why, we ended up talking about guys and relationships. Let me just give a brief introduction about Haz. Haz is a lady which is currently dating a lady and Izi recently just broke up with her 2 years long boyfriend. Haz has a steady girlfriend and Izi is currently playin' the field.

So Haz was saying when you date a guy you shouldn't be showing it too much. Cause when the dude knows that you are soo stupidly in love with him he has this idea that he can just do anything that he wants and he can still get away with it. It's kinda like he has this idea that he owns you. I reckon she was talking at a guy's perspective. Since she is kinda man-ish, probably she was referring to herself. I really agree with her though.

I've seen people like that and months after that the relationship goes down the drain. I love you baby muah muah..like EVERY SINGLE DAY!! Send tiny hearts and all that crap. Tau tau your boyfriend is banging another girl on the other side of his facebook wall. I have to admit, I was once like that. Not proud of it, literally! I wish I could turn back time and give myself a slap on the head for every MUSHY thing that I did on public display. And I actually learned (the hard way) that it shouldn't be like that. Atleast not in public. Not saying that you can't do it at ALL, you CAN, just not to an extend your man would find you repulsive instead.

If you really think about it, it's hard to get a man's attention. Some girls have it easy, I don't know how they did it. So far the guys that I have come across they are as complicated as hell. When I say attention, I mean a proper attention. If you flash them your boobs ofcourse you can definately get their attention, but that's not the kind of attention that I'm talking about here. Oh well. Only some people are worth working for right? You want it, then you're gona have to work for it.

That's all I have to say for today. It' the weekend and I'm looovin' it!
Can I just be random. Oh wait, this is my blog, I can be anything I want here!

The things you say make me smile. Does that mean I really like you?

Oh by the way, remember the ASPAC story that I was tellng you about. I was told today that I'm gona be swicted to another department like literally!!! My goodness, my boss needs to make up his mind. I am still gonabe handling the ASPAC and because of that he is literally putting me in Marketing and Public Relation! I better start brushing up on my photoshop skills and essay writings. Ohh dear.. What have I put myself into.

It's a little bit funny

It's funny how a minute ago I was eager to blog about stuff. Now that I am here infront of my laptop I seem to be lost for words.

Quite a number of things have happened. Some just makes me smile so wide and bright. Some are just nasty.

Let's Extreme is just next week! I'm so looking forward for it now. Have not stopped working out just for this event. Which I think is a good thing. Got my thighs and glutes  tightened up and an increase in stamina I reckon. Better looking Bum too I think. Hehehe. I have to admit I am guilty of working on too much on my legs. Need to increase my upper body strength perhaps by 40 per cent. If I really put my mind into it, I think I can do the monkey bars and the normal manual dips. Will give it a try soon enough.

Received quite a good news at work today. As of December 1st, I shall no longer be sitting on my current position. Just for the time being. Mr Boss have moved me to a project based assignment. Good thing about this move is, I will no longer be handling things like camp, traffic game, theme exhibition and the other stuff. I will be running the ASPAC project full time until it ends.

Let me just give you a brief information on what the ASPAC is all about. ASPAC is short for Asia Pacific Network of Science & Technology Centres. Each year an ASPAC conference will be conducted whereby all science centres from all over the world, whom are ASPAC members, will gather together and discuss about things like their developments, studies, exhibitions, etc etc. There will be seminars, workshops, activities, visits and even science shows conducted. This year the conference was held in Singapore, next year it'll be in Korea and Brunei will be hosting the conference in 2014. Now that I am the project manager I suppose I have to get working. It's kinda a big thing compared to what I have done previously. I suppose if I really put my mind into it, I'll manage. One of the few things that I do not look forward to are the meetings that we need to do with the stakeholders. Ahh well.. nothing comes easy.

So that's pretty much about work. Oh by the way I got employee of the month award for the month of October. Yeay me! Heheh..

On a different note,

Random facts coming along here so bare with me.

At one point or another you will realize different characters of a person. A person you never thought you can be comfortable with, you actually find it easy to be around him or her. When you actually thought having your partner there 24/7 on your ass brings absolute joy is actually not true. Well, it's just not as fun as you think it is. I came to realize a few things and I have to say, some of my "habits", I need to change them. Cause some of them are just not cool. Yeaappss.

I got myself a gold bracelet. Loving it! First gold purchase using my own money. Feels really good.

It feels good to be spending your own money that you earned by your own two hands.

Probably that is all for tonight. My jabber jabs are beginning to sound unnecessary.


Cherio Eberybadehh!

P/S: Some pictures from the launching that we had!

So FUN!

Aloha!

Goody Goody That I've Become

My First Science Show With My Science Communicators!

Hyped and Energized

Hello,

It is the last day of our short 3 days holiday. It's about 5pm and I haven't even showered. Hehe. It's good to be lazy sometimes. There are days when you have to keep your mind on idle mode. It helps you get ready for the next week's hurdles.

The holiday has been good. Went to Miri to get some durians, which I have been craving for, for weeks and managed to hit the gym yesterday and hung out with some friends. Meanwhile, my mail is flooded with mails which I reckon I have to entertain by next week. Work can wait. I'm having a great time being a lazy bum today. I was contemplating to go to the gym again today to do some arms training. If I workout today I might just not be able to do my circuit efficiently tomorrow. So I decided to save it for tomorrow. I look forward to the Monday circuits now, which I am myself surprised. Ever since the new guys entered the work place I'm hyped with keeping fit and what-not. Which is a good thing. It has been awhile. I like the drive that they have especially Hazel, she makes me wana work out everyday. She does Muay Thai, which I think is really cool. Each and everyone of us have our own goal, this includes Steph. We were lazy bums and we would work out only like ones a month, so sucks, really. But now we are trying to make it as consistent as possible, by going back to circuit and have our own HLP every Wednesday. It has been good, on top of the sessions mentioned, I've been going to the gym just to refresh back what I was thought before. I did forget some of the routines but I reckon if I keep on doing it I'll get the hang of it.

AND, not only that just today I have enrolled myself for the TelBru's Lets Extreme. Yeap we have these things in Brunei and I'll be doing it with Steph. I'm very excited about it. There will be a fitness test prior to the competition, it'll suck if we fail though. Hence, the strength training. It'll be nice if I can pair up with a dude. Non of my guy friends are up for it. It is either they are not interested, they'll be going on a vacation or they have to work. Oh well, nevermind, I'm gona just do it for fun and there are days when I actually wonder if Steph is actually a guy in a girl's body. So it's fine.

I have been watching my food these days. I've asked around and have been reading some stuff from the net about gaining weight and toning up the right way. It all boils down to eating clean. So I've been cutting down on the oil, sugar and salt. Feeding on tubers, carbs and protein. I'm not too sure how long I can stand having just salmon head with steam rice or chicken with steam rice every lunch time, I guess I just have to do it as long as I have to. No guts no glory I keep on telling myself.
I was quite active sometime ago, but never really watched my food. So I would still have flabs on certain areas of my body, like my tummy and my arms. I was told to watch my food but I didn't listen, but now it got me thinking. Working out 3 -4 times a week is tiring and you do not wana put all that effort to waste right?

I got new gears last night. Heheh. A motivation to work out even harder. Yippee. So semangat. Hopefully this will last. Seriously. I can be a super lazy ass sometime. Very Sucky at the same time.

I came across a website and I think it's quite neat.

http://www.muscleandfitness.com/

In case some of you are trying to start doing weight trainings on your own,  I suggest it's good to know a few things before hand. I wana get a girl trainer, I find it awkward to have a guy teaching me weight lifting especially if I don't know the person that well. Most of my lady friends, NON i mean, non of them does proper weight lifting. Hmm..so sad. Forever alone.

A guy friend owns a gym, been going there lately. But then again, it's hard to get hold of him even to just have coffee, let alone have him to TRAIN me. I reckon I would still be embarrassed though if I were to have him teaching me. Hehehe. Oh well. Nevermind, I was thought how to do this before so I'm sure with enough revision I'll manage.

I did legs training yesterday with the sister. My sister is strong! She's actually stronger than I am, than most girls I know. Gila kaliee. She made me feel a little bit intimidated for a second there.  I think this is because she has bigger build than I do. She can do 40kgs weighted deep squats as easy as 8 reps effortlessly. I had to really put my mind into it until my face turned red. Impressive I may say. Proud of her.

I'm thinking of getting some supplements to enhance muscle growth. Been reading some stuff online and getting different opinions from friends and family and truth be told I got confused with all the information given. I'm thinking of getting a BCAA (Branched Chain Amino Acid) but with my training intensity I'm not too sure if I should. I might just not need it. And if I actually do, which one? If you didn't know there are actually alot of them, from different brands and they come in different forms. I think I need to do more reading. Maybe I'll get one after I have finished my super pump. Never thought I would actually finish it. Heheh.

Might be doing some hiking next week. I can't wait. It has been awhile since I went for one. I'm loving the energy that the girls have at the office. I'm no longer a sloth. Yeay. Today will be my 7th day of healthy eating. Cheat day was on Friday, I had lots and lots of durian. So yummy. And Mc Donalds, my gosh so fatty. But it was good. The guilt was there, but it was good. I'm gona give myself til end of December, lets just see if something good will come out of this. Maybe bigger toned arms, oh how I wish. Flatter tummy, bigger sexy legs, I want very many. Who knows, maybe 8 reps of pull ups non stop. Teehee.

I had my legs measured today and my waist. I am now 21 cm on the thighs (bigger than mom's, yeay) and 27 cm on my waist. I was ever 19 on my thighs and 25 on my waist, I was scrawny. So gross so ugly. My weight was like 45kg? People started thinking I was an anorexic. Not gona go there again. Ever. I have learned to appreciate ideal weight range and that strong is the new skinny. :)

So I guess that's that. I think I've poured more than a handful of information about keeping fit. Probably some pictures to get you more hyped and happening about keeping fit just like we all are. At the moment.

Til then, adios.

Treat others the way you wanabe treated

Good evening folks!

How is everybody doing?

I have been utilizing my days to its fullest. Pretty hectic I may say, but manageable. Installation of exhibition is done and I'm impressed with how it turned out to be. I've gone back to doing circuits. It's awesome as usual. I think I've gained some weight too. Which is a good thing, I think.  Been binging these past few days. I reckon I'm gona have my period soon.

I have this aim of trying to gain some pounds. I was told to eat like crazy and after I have reached a certain weight I have to tone myself up. Currently working on it. Sigh. Nothing comes easy. Gona enroll myself for Muay Thai classes soon. I hope. Can't wait.

I paid a visit to a lady friend. And when I say friend, it's not like me and my friend friend, it's a different friend. I promised to pay her a visit sometime ago and just today I actually managed to go and see her. I miss her cooking. She's a really good cook. We sorta had a lunch date at her place today and it was actually good to be able to eat her cooking again after a really long time. She made me like 6 different dishes. Yeap! SIX! Even my mom doesn't cook as much for me and my siblings. She was anticipating my presence and I thought it was really sweet. How do I know this? Cause the table was properly set when I arrived. I was a little bit touched. :)

We had a good chat. On top of the good lunch she made me chocolate cake. I've always liked her chocolate mud cake and she actually took her time to make one just for me to 'tapau' home. :') Sweet lady she is. AND... when I was just about to leave, she showed me her orchids and out of the blue she plugged some of the orchids and gave them to me. I have it hanging up side down at my dresser right now. I guess all that's left to do now is wait for it to turn into potpourri. Hehe.

After what happened, she still treats me the way she treated me before. I'm quite happy that things didn't change between me and her. I'll prolly pay her a visit again someday.

Nyum

Well, Hello Baby Alai. Long Time No See.

I wana have tummy like this and a belly button ring. Perhaps someday.

PS: Hmm.. I think I missy miss.

 I wonder if I'll ever see you again.

Everybody Leaves

I'm feeling abit out of place these past few days. Dysfunctional I may say. Not to mention over the top pessimistic. The more I wana get rid of my what-if's virus the more "what-ifs" I get. Just today three different people said I'm being pessimistic.

I reckon I've been let down too many times, hence the negativity.

I have quite a number of things running through my head. There are things that do not go my way and it bothers me. I wana question why. But then again the good side of me keeps on saying that God is testing me and he has better plans. And when something doesn't turn out the way you want it to be, it basically means one thing, find other ways to do it or try harder.

I managed to successfully bring in the new exhibition. Again from Australia, way ahead of schedule. I reckon I would be a good project engineer. I have my science communicators now. That means I have 5 permanent staff under me. And mind you, these people are Degree Graduates! You see, I like having the degree graduates to work with. So far they are enthusiastic, knowledgeable and efficient. The problem currently is, I'm a fresh graduate myself. My degree certificate is only 2 years old. So I'm still not quite comfortable with bossing them around. Well, I do not really boss people around. I think. You get what I mean. Still trying to compose myself everytime I call them for a meeting. I know what I want. As a leader you should always know what you want. So two things I have to look into here. One is the development of the workplace. Two is the development of my staff. And I am currently trying to develop myself too and sad to say,  I kinda have to do it on my own. There are other couple of things that I wana do. For instance develop new educational programs, new games, get new puzzles but there are times when I think, OMG am I raising the stake too high? Cause I might just fall head first and die. Negativity. You see what I mean? Although, deep in my heart, I know I can do it as long as I work for it. Usaha Tangga Kejayaan my friend says.

New exhibition means another launching ceremony. I've managed to delegate the work to the new staff. Hopefully everything will fall into place efficiently. And everything would go the way I want it to be. Heheh. Currently I'm the acting head, so I make any decision that I want, if only it's like that all the way. Oh well.

On top of that I need to conduct a workshop for them on how to do a proper science show. Oh my dear Lord, how this?? It's not a must. But I figured I should. Cause the whole point of going for the KL trip was this and it would be super selfish of me if I do not pass on the knowledge. It would be a good development for them as well.

I think I've been blabbing too much about work.I reckon I should stop.

Other than work, there's another thing that's bothering me. Its about my Master application. Apparently, they have not process the in service's applications and I have no idea why.So I'm currently waiting for the result. I do not like waiting especially this type of wait. It makes me lose focus hence I keep on messing things up for example I forget things easily. My brother gave me a lecture of about getting myself ready for the whole thing. Going back to school and what not. I told him that I do not wana do that cause I don't wana go through the trouble of getting myself excited but in the end I get a solid rejection on the face by a paper. If I do get it, it would be a good self development process. I suppose there's nothing much I can do but wait.

I'll be having alot of things to look forward to these coming few weeks. The o-levels is just around the corner.Have to give the kids extra work.That's another thing that I need to really put my mind into.

Come to think of it, I am utilizing my life to it's fullest. Not bad ey. I do wana become a better person. I guess I'm going towards the right direction. There might be some hiccups here and there. But that is just how life is, yes?

My eyes are getting kinda heavy. I need to turn in soon. It's my day off tomorrow, however I need to be up early. My car is done, will be picking it up tomorrow. Happy Me. I miss it alot.

Last words for tonight.

I kinda miss you. It's weird but it's true.Oh well. All the best to you. Hmm..too bad I can't say this to you.

Everybody Leaves. It's an ugly truth. Face it.

Good night everyone.