The grass is always greener on the other side

Hey,

I m currently watching Pretty Little Liars online and came across a really nice song.

It's called let go of her hand by Right the stars. I am really getting annoyed with A. Seriously.

Anyhoots, my car is back in the workshop. Sigh. I had it sent last week and kinda have to send it again last Saturday. I have no idea how they do their job there. I am quite lucky to have a friend to help me out with sorting it out. I reckon because I am a lady the mechanics from the workshop were telling me things that were not quite right. Thinking I might just not find out. I might not know but I do know people that knows. So silly.

I just met this friend. I'm not too sure why he's very willing to help me sort out my car. Don't get me wrong I do appreciate what he's doing. He's even willing to skip work just to go to the workshop first thing tomorrow.  Hmm. He's pretty funny and very unusual in a way. Not too sure how to describe this person. Oh well. Thank You again friend. You might not read this but I'm sure god would know how to repay you.

I have something in mind that I would like to share before I leave.

She fell for one and her feelings were left to die.
She finally sees the greener grass on the other side.
She might not be able to stay and lay. On the grass so soft so green.
But atleast she got her feelings back. 
At ease she feels, her past fading.
To shades of gray and blurry rays.
She praises GOD for the lessons, she praises GOD for the experience.
For what she went through there are reasons.
To be wiser, stronger and bolder.
With that, here it officially ends.

Signing out.

Yours Truely.

Drive By

Hi *Smiling Big big*

A little bit of update from my side. Camp is over. We managed to go through it. Pat self at the back. It was fun I may say. About 80 kids turned up of different characters and attitudes. And boy, some of them were really smart. I had my panic moment as well. These kids were like 9 to 12 years old. So they practically cry about anything. Stomach ache, missing handphones, missing their mummies, hungry, sleepy. You name it! It didn't turn out bad though. The kids did have fun. My staff were once again very helpful.

I reminisced about some stuff this particular day and I missed having a nose stud. And guess what, yeap! Pierced my nose again. Just a day before the camp. It doesn't hurt as bad as when I did the first time. And truth be told I'm thinking of getting more on my ears. We'll see. Maybe next week.

 Spot the nose stud.

Can I be random now?

I have come across quite a number of different type of people. I recently came across a very unusual one. He's not weird or anything. Fairly interesting. But I can't seem to through him. Not a very usual guy that spills everything about himself. Kinda have to dig stuff out from him. Which I kinda find very interesting. Makes me wonder if he's like a loan shark or something or a gangster that runs a drug company. I don't know. At this point probably I will never find out. Oh well. It doesn't really matter. We had a good chat. I guess that's that.

Not that he will ever read this, I would like to convey this message to him anyway.

I had a good talk. Not always I would feel comfortable talking to a person I just met. And your ride, very hot. I wana marry it. Till we meet again friend.*Smiling Big Big*


That is all for tonight. Tomorrow awaits. And I miss my car.

Look Before You Leap

Dear Readers,

So...How u doin?

It is now June as you all know. June means camp is just around the corner. The school holiday is just around the corner and traffic game is JUST around the corner. And HE, as usual, is not helpful at all as USUAL. Ah well. Something good is bound to happen I'm sure. Why do I say this?  Cause a rainbow always comes after the rain.

Can I just say something. I have cleaned the room my self. I didn't make a big fuss about it. Sheesh. The things that comes out from your mouth, most of the time they are nonsense. Nonsense I tell you.

The people you have to put up with in your life. *sigh*

I know I'm not "Miss-all-perfecto". Atleast before I say things or do things I would think first. Was it never told to everybody to LOOK before you LEAP? If knives can kill words are worse, it gives prolonged mental and physical pain. I'd rather be dead. Seriously. I have no idea how some people think sometimes.

*Sigh* Ah well. I'm still alive. I guess I'll manage.

I've come across quite a number of NOT SO nice people. I wish I could just give each and everyone of them a piece of my mind. But that will never be the case.

I did something very drama queen-ish afew days ago. Not one bit I regret doing it. It's just normal that at one point you would blow if someone keeps on pressing your wrong button. There are times when I put too much faith on someone. What I learn today is, not everyone will turn out to be the person you expect them to be. That's just how life is. It's tough, wheather you like it or not, you're gona have to grow some balls and stomach the son of a gun. Grow some vagina how my brother would put it. *Don't ask me why.It's something that he got from 9gag* Anyhoots. It is what it is. After it happened my heart raced and my face turned hot and that only happens when I'm super MAD. I guess I was. Cause I remember hitting and kicking some stuff. Oh dear. I'm turning manly by the day. I don't think I wana ever do that again. Kinda lost myself for a moment there.

The camp is starting soon which means late nights, kids and office as my home will conquer. I'm not too sure how I'm gona juggle those things with tuition. One day at a time I reckon? All the best to yours truely. My job is good. How I wish we have a more charismatic leader. Then it'll be perfect. We kinda have one that tells us to look for a new job. And says that he wants to quit and he's actually looking for a new job. Rubbish I tell you. Its an utter nonsense. And he expects us to work like a top notch worker when he's there demotivating us with his gibberish? I doubt he notices. Think before you speak. Think! *sigh* Why god, why??

I got work to do. Maybe I should stop here. Need to get it done before the clock strikes 12am.

I got an iPod Nano. *Not in a way I thought I would* But yeah, I got an iPod Nano. Now I can go running with my music efficiently playing.

Warmest Regards,
Yours Truely.

Random

Hi,

It has been pretty quiet around here.

So I figured, maybe I should jot down the thoughts that were running in my head while I was in the shower earlier.

It's something random and out of the blue though.

I was thinking, maybe I'm ready to be a mom. Hehe. I like kids, the tubby ones. It's okay if my kid is not gonabe tubby, I'll make him/her tubby. I don't know. But my point is, I think I'm ready to be a mommy. It'll be nice.

So the plan is, I'll get married when I'm 27 and have my first kid when I'm 28. Prolly I'll have the second one when I'm 30.

It's just logic that in order to have kids, I need a husband. Do I have someone in mind you may ask? Honestly, I do not have anyone in mind at the moment. You can say that I kinda suck when it comes to judging a person to be with like seriously. So yeah.

But I believe I shall meet that one person that will treat me like a princess not because he has to but because he wants to. A man that shall make other beautiful girls be jealous of me and not the other way round. A man that I can count on and look up to.

Just wait for guy love to smile :) 

Interesting

Hi!

It was an ultimate interesting day for me today. Not exaggerating , but yeah, my day was  different than usual. Why? We got burnt man. One particular person kinda got surf literally. We,  as in me and my colleagues kinda had a tiny taste of the bullet as well. I was hoping it would be a good day at work today, it turned out to be scary instead. I kinda had a dejavu for a moment there. Reminded me of the time when a mean teacher walks in the class and I get all quiet and extremely attentive. That was what happened earlier at work today. I'm not gona spill out the details but the meeting that we had earlier was an eye opener I may say. It's good to have a person do sensible and professional commentaries on your work and what not. There are reasons to why they do that and it is not always because that they think you suck.

So sucks man. That's the 'in' sentence me and my friend uses these days. We are lame sometimes. Well what to do?

It was kinda brutal, what happened earlier. I can feel myself shrinking in my chair. I was really nervous that I couldn't type the word 'maintenance' correctly, in my head I was like thinking how the hell do you spell maintenance?

The verdict of the meeting? We kinda have to improve on our strategies on certain things, have better planning, the plan is there. I mean everyone knows that when you plan to fail you're planning to fail. I just don't know why with the plan that we had we still got shut down. Oh well. The bright side is, I have ample time to sort things out properly. Let's just hope he, who shall not be named, will not interfere and make a mess out of everything. I don't mind having him giving us the proper guidance and everything. I just don't like it when he comes up with stuff and not have thorough discussions with the rest of the team. So sucks man. So sucks. Hopefully me and my team can pull this off properly. Alot of things to look forward to this month. Will be going to Temburong. That's like just days before the run. Looking forward to that, meet students, do workshops. I reckon it will be good. June is coming, that means more camp, National Traffic Game and the June exam and other things which I do not remember. Oh dear.

Speaking of running, I went circuit today. Yeah man! After like how many months? Before you come to a conclusion of thinking that I'm a lazy bum, let me explain myself. I did gym trainings for like 2, 3 months, I took a break cause things happened, kinda lost the drive in a way. And then I continued by doing some running just before the SCB run. Took a break after that and decided to train again, just to get myself ready for the HSBC run. Why circuit and not the gym you may wonder?

One reason, at the moment I do not have a trainer. The trainer I had kinda bailed. So sucks man. I know. Hence, if I were to go training myself, I might just look stupid, cause I forgot some of the routines and I might just hurt myself. I'm a slow learner when it comes to these things. I can do some, but the precision wouldn't be there. Another reason is, for those who has ever done weight trainings before, real ones, not just go there to look sexy and just to tailgate your six pack boyfriend, I mean really go training, you'd understand, you kinda need someone to yell at you and force you to do all the routines. If you're doing it alone, especially if you're a beginner it wouldn't be a fruitful training. Probably not as fruitful as when you have someone to push you all the way. For those who are still going strong on your gym trainings I envy you. I'll do my homework no worries. I'll head to the gym in the near future, when my confidence is there.

Why did I decide to go back to doing circuits? I came across an article saying, if you wana increase your running performance, you can do so by doing strength trainings. In getfit, we do weights we do laps all sorts of supersets which really tests your endurance, strength, stamina and what not. it contains all the ingredients that I sorta need for this upcoming run. So why not right? It wouldn't make me as 'shapely' as when I train in the gym though, it might actually make me more skinny. Bright side, I wouldn't be carrying too much weight when I go running. But still, too skinny no good. I don't mind losing some fats on my face though. We'll see, I believe if I eat right, I wouldn't be losing that much weight.

The training earlier was painful. Probably because I haven't been doing anything like that in quite awhile. However, it was good. The last WOD we did was a 400m sprint. The trainer was saying, if we give it all out we can finish it in 2 minutes. I was thinking, no way dude, not gona happen, not today. I kinda clocked 1 min 45 sec. I was surprised myself. And I was running in my vibrams. Those things hurt by the way. It takes quite sometime for you to get use to it I reckon.

We had to do like a hundred sit ups , push ups, burpees etc. And now, I kinda have an abrasion on my ass from the sit ups. So sucks man.

My palm reads, I feel burnt

Please do join getfit crossfit if you wana get bruises and cuts. 

It does always make you feel good by the end of the day though. Cause you know, regardless of what ever workouts or exercises that you do, it makes you healthier.

I think I have written enough for tonight.

Till next time.

Ayam Sabung

So I'm like thinking why?

And How?


Kawan saya cakap dia buat orang macam ayam sabung.

Dia simpan dua ayam suruh sabung dan dia lihat dari siring. Saya fikir, kenapa seseorang boleh berfikiran begitu sedang kan mereka sentiasa berniat baik tehadap beliau? Adakah jejaka itu tidak mempunyai perasaan? Ataupun dia sedang asyik melihat ayam serama yang asyik bersabung sesama jenis?

Disini saya berfikir akan apa yang terlintas didalam fikiran beliau?

Satu perkara yang saya harapkan ialah, tuhan akan menjauhi orang itu dari saya.

You might be wondering why on earth did I write in malay? First because I am one. Second, its a good attempt to brush up on my malay writing skills. Been composing letters in malay these past few days and I dont wana suck.

That is all for now.

P/S: I like Justin when he sings.

Little thing called love

I just finished watching a Thai Movie.Yes. A thai movie called "Little thing called love". It's a very corny teenage movie, but I kinda enjoyed it. Probably it's safe to say that I am a corny person at one point or another. The movie was about a girl that has a crush on this boy. Obviously. The word corny at the very beginning kinda explains itself.  For many years of having a crush at the boy, they eventually got together.

I am gonabe a little bit frank and bold with tonight's post. I do not care if some of you are gona judge me or perhaps think that I have a sad life. Or probably tweet about how lousy of a teacher I am. Let me say it now, I do not give a fuck. I am open to freedom of speech and you can go Fuck yourself.

Anyway, you know what I have not been doing for a really long time? Have a crush on a person. The last time I had a crush on a person was about 5 to 6 years ago? When was the last time you had a crush on a person? How do you differentiate between a crush and NOT a crush? You know that it's a crush when you like the guy, but you do not go out on a date with him, do not have his number and he makes you wonder if he knows your existence. Freaky, but yeah it's kinda true. You know it's a crush, when he passes by and smiles at you and says hi, you'd jump around like a hippy when he's out of sight. Funny but true. That was what happened to me when I had a crush on this dude. You know it's a crush, when you find out that he has a girlfriend and you become a tad sad and move on and still secretly thinks he's cute. That's a crush, a simple form of sentiment towards a person, whereby any agony results from the person being with somebody else wouldn't even kill a tiny bug. Simple and nice. As I was saying, it has been awhile since I've had a crush on somebody. Hmm..

And another thing that I have not done in awhile is go on a first date. The last time I went on a real first date was, I don't know, way before I entered uni. Damn. I kinda threw my social life away after I entered uni didn't I? How do you differentiate if it was a real first date or just a simple dinner or lunch? First, he would pick you up from home. And before you see him, you would actually have butterflies in your tummy and you would pick the right attire to wear precisely. Not to mention nervous and super excited. How do I know these things? That's what I felt on the very first 'first date' I had with this guy that I used to date. And it's a real first date when you actually like like the guy and actually waits for him to call you back. That first date would probably be the most proper 'first date' I have had, cause I can still remember it until now. I dated the guy only for a couple of months though, probably that is why the only thing I can remember about him is the first date that we had. Hehehe. I did go out for lunch with this dude a few months ago, we ended our lunch with an awkward hug. Hehehehe. That was funny. He didn't manage to give me that jittery feeling that I was looking for. So yeah. We are still friends, I guess we're cool.

Oh, how I miss. Life was simpler back then. I think. Now it's just like a crumpled paper with stains that I can't just get rid of. Gah! My birthday is coming, I'm not really looking forward for it. How I wish I can skip it. Partly because my dad won't be around. So it'll be family dinner minus one. I think. I don't know. It doesn't matter, I already told my mum not to get me a cake and what not. I might sound like a depress little child right now. I don't mind having the spotlight all to my little sister for now. Need to get her a birthday present. Probably tomorrow.

What else is there?

Have you ever been in love with someone that it hurts? I have. And now I'm thinking why and how? Love is a strong word and most of the time it is overrated. But then again, who wouldn't overrate love? For a girl it means more than just a form of sentiment towards somebody. A girl may say they do not want flowers, they do not want presents, they do not want their boyfriend to be there 24/7, truth be told, in most cases that's not true. It IS when she thinks you are NOT the one she wana spend the rest of her life with. A girl would always want the attention. Mind you, here I am talking about the girls that wana spend the rest of her life with you. If you think your girl is cool for not being clingy most of the time, sorry to say dude, you're probably just her rebound or her toyboy.Boytoy?You get what I mean.

One piece of advise to girls out there, if you wana give full amount of lovey dovey heart love to a dude, just make sure you give it to the right guy. A guy that gives you back as much as what you give to him. If he gives you so much more, then he is definitely a keeper. You can bring him home to your Momma. I'm not too sure if I actually gave mine to the right person. I reckon I might've misplaced mine. Imagine you falling into quick sand. One thing for sure, it's hard to get out from it. If you panic and try to get yourself out when you're panicky you might drown and die. The only way is to calm yourself down and get out slowly. That is what happens when you donate your heart full of cotton candy love to the wrong person.

How do you know if you have the right guy? I would probably be the last person you would wana ask that. Heheh. You can pray to god. He knows everything, he's the one that gives you anything and everything. So yeah.


On a different note, installation of my exhibition is completed. Yeay me! Two Australians, Mark and Lawson plus Gary came Brunei to help us with the exhibition. Awesome and skillful guys they were. Gona miss them.The exhibition stuff are pretty cool. Can't wait to see the faces of the kids when they play with the exhibits. I believe they would enjoy it very much. Other than that, got some other stuff that needs to be sorted out. Again challenge accepted! :)

AND!I've been missing out on my trainings. Seriously. Not GOOD! I found out an interesting fact. Wait for it!

Strength training can actually boosts your performance in running. Hip hip hooray. That's one useful fact. The only problem now is, implementing it. Yikes.


This must be one of the longest post I have ever made. I know the shortest one is the one titled if you do not know what to say don't say anything. I practically didn't type anything. Hmm. I reckon depression kinda hit me that time. So I guess, thanks to those who actually read the whole thing. I personally think you are awesome.

Have a great night. Life's too short for you to spend it on something worthless. So look before you leap.

Bye